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I wish I knew sooner || Roman x Fem!Ace!Reader

⚠This may contain darker themes, like somebody will be 'forced' upon you, people will push you to be more 'active' but it ends with fluff don't worry⚠

[YOUR POV, IN THE PAST]

   Spending time with this guy is pretty fun but he always has his shifty eyes all over me at any chance he has, even when I'm wearing the baggiest of clothes. I know I'm supposed to trust him, especially after knowing him for over a year, but it's that little thought that is getting much bigger in the back of my head.

I began to feel overwhelmed with horrible images and thoughts. That was until I was pinned down to the sofa and I looked up at him. "Wh-Hey! What are you doing?" I asked shakily, faintly hearing my quickened heartbeat.

"I'm getting bored. This relationship is going really slow, so I'm going to have my way," he grinned and squinted at me with the most mischievous and evil look you could possibly imagine.

"No, s-stop! Get off me!" He didn't listen and just kept biting at my neck, it felt horrible. I had to do something so I pushed him off with enough force that he fell onto the floor. Quickly, I grabbed a bag and put all of my essentials in and called someone who would understand and respect me: Thomas.

[PRESENT TIME]

   It's been two years since I escaped him and now I'm living with Thomas Sanders. His sides helped me both mentally and physically, I didn't tell them what exactly he done so they didn't have to worry too much. I only told them that I couldn't be near him anymore and thankfully they didn't press into it in case they stressed me out even more.

Eventually, I developed a small crush on the fanciful side known as Roman and he even returned the feelings. He hasn't tried anything risky or dangerous, he cares for me. Just like I care for him.

I was laying in bed, waiting for him to finish up in the bathroom, and watching (F/S) when I heard a door open and close followed by quick footsteps. All of a sudden, I was practically pounced on like a predator hovering over its prey. Before I could say anything, I was kissed harshly on the lips. I didn't kiss back: I was stiff as a board.

"(Y/N)? Are you ok?" I couldn't say anything as my eyes became glassy, blurring my vision. "Crap! I didn't want to make you cry! Oh God, I'm sorry!" He rolled  to my left side and pulled me in for a hug. No words could come out no matter how much I tried. He ran his fingers through my hair with one hand and rubbed my back with the other as I continued crying on his chest. That minute instantly reminded me of my awful ex and I couldn't bare to think what would happen if I ended up with someone like him again.

After what felt like hours, I calmed down and he asked me if I would like to talk about it. I explained to him what exactly happened, how that moment reminded me of it, but also how I didn't want him worrying about me.

"I'm sorry for not telling you," I sniffed. My nose was blocked up due to all the tears that weren't able to be held back.

"You aren't the one who should be sorry, if anything, it should be me. I'm sorry for not knowing." He stared at me with a genuinely concerned look.

"You only didn't know because I didn't tell you."

"I love you, (Y/N)." He said, not wanting to continue this.

"I love you too, Roman." With that I fell asleep in his strong arms.

"I wish I knew sooner..."

WC: 636