What If

Chapter 11

Saturday.

Dahil mabait akong estudyante at wala na akong kinakailangang habulin, wala na akong pasok ngayong Sabado. Pero nagising pa rin ako nang alas otso ng umaga.

I looked at my table where I put my phone last night. When I found my phone, I automatically turned it on and opened my beloved Facebook app. Ngayon lang naman ako mag F-facebook. Balik na ako sa pag re-review mamaya.

Vander Leigh Buenaventura is celebrating birthday with Midnight Lorenz Caballero.
8 hrs. Public.

Iyon ang unang bumungad sa aking newsfeed. Hindi ako interisado sa mga post ni Van but this one captivated my attention. Lalo na't naka-tag si Lorenz.

It's twelve midnight but I still can't sleep. Maybe because I'm thinking about the man who was also named Midnight. I'm just lying on my bed the whole time. Beside me is my table with my flower vase full of long-stemmed rose that you gave me. It feels like staring at it became my new hobby. Hugging your human-sized panda bear makes me feel like hugging you also. I can still smell your scent from here. I can't help my mind from doing its own flashbacks. I can't help remembering how you sang our favorite song for me while strumming your guitar. Still, your smile and your beautiful eyes is the best gift that I received from you.

Thank you Lorenz for making this day very memorable and special. You made me feel love using your own, different ways. Thank you for letting me love you with my own, unique ways too.

You are one of the best God given gift that I've ever received. And you are one of the reasons why I named this my best birthday! I love you Lorenz.

Under the caption was a different set of pictures. The long stemmed roses was there, and so was the human-sized panda bear.

There was also a picture where Lorenz was strumming his guitar. I also saw a picture of them together. And lastly, the picture that gained the most reaction is their picture together too. But it was a near to kissing picture where their eyes are locked to each other. Kuha ito kahapon sa university.

I just rolled my eyes. Ramdam ko pa ang paglalambingan nila dito. And it makes me cringe! Nang-iinit ang dugo ko.

So yesterday was Vander's birthday. No wonder kung bakit effort kung effort ang ibinigay ni Lorenz kahapon.

I just smiled bitterly while looking at their pictures. Yes, I feel jealous. Absolutely jealous. But it's absolutely nothing.

I was never given this kind of effort. I was never surprised in my own birthday.

He never dared to give me that kind of birthday present. But the thing is, he met me better and earlier than her. I was his girl before she came. Maybe not romantically, but we were closer than ever.

Teka lang, sino ba ako? Sino ba ako para mag reklamo kung bakit hindi siya masyadong nag e-effort sa akin? Bakit ba ako magrereklamo kung hindi ako sinusupresa? Bakit ba ako magrereklamo kung kulang ang oras niya sa akin at kay Vander ay sobra sobra?

Sino ba ako sa buhay niya? Kaibigan lang naman niya ako hindi ba?

Mukhang totoo nga ang sinasabi nila. Your boy best friend will probably leave you when he finds his girlfriend.

Tiningnan ko ang mga comments at papuri lahat ang nakita ko. Wala akong hate comment na nabasa.

Some greeted Van a happy birthday, some complimented her beauty, but most of them says how lucky Van is to have Lorenz.

She knows how lucky she is, people. Everyone knows! Including me.

I immediately closed my Facebook app and tried to focus my attention on something else. Umupo ako sa upuan ng study table ko para mag-review.