Hello heartache l.h ☆ 5sos

chapter 9

When I heard the word into I started freaking out, I quickly shut my eyes and started moving to find a comfortable position, i found one and started taking deep breathes, they started opening the coffin, and then I felt the sun shine onto my closed eye lids. I held my breathe.

I could hear all the crying. I felt a flower drop on my chest. "I love you." I heard, it sounded like my sisters voice, her voice was shaky, The priest started talking. I didn't really listen because I couldn't hold my breathe any longer I decided to take to small breathes. I waited until I couldn't hear anyone, I quickly took two small deep breathes then held it again. I heard Luke whispering to me, i listen carefully.

"Lola, I love you so much, never forget that."

You could tell by his voice he has been crying more then my own sister. I really did love him and care about him, that's why I did this. I just felt so bad and i couldn't stop thinking about it. I just wanted to get up kiss him. I then realized I was breathing very lightly. I cursed in my head, then held my breathe, thank god he didn't see, I cant even imagine what he would do if he saw. The coffin shut and snapped me out of my thoughts. I could hear so much more tears. I then let my self cry. I couldn't hold in my tears any longer. I cried so much that i bet if someone saw they would think I was a mental person and that I was having a breakdown. I was saying Luke in between tears, I just really wanted him right now.

The coffin started moving and I took deep breathes to try and stop crying. I suddenly heard a truck, i assume it was for digging the hole, I was mostly worried about then putting me in the hole because what if when they do, they will just drop me and I would hurt my head, and actually die. I then realized that it didn't really matter because, i am suppose to actually be dead...So I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

Right when I said that, the coffin dropped and it felt like a ride at the local theme park that goes up so high then suddenly drops. It hurt a bit but not as much that i could die.

"ouch" I said to myself. Then they suddenly started putting sand onto the coffin, i could hear each sand drop. This was all happening to fast, I couldn't even think through my plan,So id decided to just quickly think it through.

Right now the most important thing is me getting out. My plan was to just open the coffin and get out and remove the sand. It is going to be pretty deep but ill just have to dig from the inside. Then I would close the coffin and put the sand on top like nothing ever happened.

Then the sand stopped falling onto the coffin. I decided to wait a little longer just incase, so everyone would be gone. I waited and waited. Then I got bored of just lying there and starring into space, I decided to think. Think about my makeover. I want to look like a totally different person, I'm going to get extensions since my hair is short, also get brown contact lenses, get fake glasses, and get a spray tan since I'm pale as snow. Im also going to get some tips from a stylist. I just need to look very different so no one would recognize me. I'm also going to get a new passport picture after the makeover and when the agency is putting the new picture I'll ask them to change my name to Sophie Anderson. I don't know why, I guess I just like that name...

I then started to think about more things,like which country I'm planning to go to, school, house.

Well I'm thinking of going to Chicago, and when I was at home and still "alive" I searched for the best schools in Chicago and there was one school called Rockwood High, I have done some research and once I get settled in Chicago I"ll go to the test. I have also done some research about apartments and there is this one really nice apartment complex and most of the people who live there are going to Richwood High and I already got a room mate, Shes expecting me to go there after 4 days, just enough time for me to get everything done.

Then I got snapped out of my thoughts from a noise that was there for about 6 seconds long, I didn't know what it was but I knew i couldn't get out just yet because there were still people, I decided to continue my thinking.

I got into a comfortable position and started thinking about how am I going to get money and my passport....Then I remembered that once my parent found out they were having me they started to save up and put money into my bank account and whenever I needed it I can go take it all or just a bit, I decided to take it all. I would just have to sneak into my house and get some papers and go into the bank to claim it. I would put most of the money on my 4 credit cards my mom gave me and some in a wallet, and while I'm at home ill get my passport too.

I stopped thinking and realized it has been a pretty long time, I listened to hear if there we any noises and there wasn't anything so I......

OOOOOO Cliffhanger!!! LOL, its pretty obvious what she will do but yah... Next update is TOMORROW!!!!! ILYSM