Life Is Ecstacy - Yoongi FF

Getting Permission

Y/n POV

I feel a large hand shake my shoulder lightly in an attempt to awaken me from my slumber.
I try not to groan as I see Yoongi looking down at me, his knees bent to access my shoulder with his hand.

"Hey."
He said, gravel light in his voice to show that he only just woke up and put clothes on.
"You asked me to wake you. When you're ready, come out. I'm making breakfast."

I smile up at him, my eyes still closed because I really wish I hadn't told him to wake me at this hour of the morning.
"Thanks, Yoongi... I'll be there in a few..."

He chuckles as he walks out, closing the door slightly behind him.
I groan as I move my body into a sit, my shoulders hunched forward.
I think about how bad I must look as I rub the sleep out of my eyes.

Reluctantly I get out of bed and get dressed, getting into some jeans and one of Yoongi's hoodies I stole before he bought me clothes, just because it was easy.
I run a brush through my hair a few times to try and diminish the birds nest that has accumulated there from last night's forgoten dream.

I shamble out of my bedroom, my eyes refusing to say open as I monitor my way around from memory.
When I gravitate towards the kitchen I hear Yoongi laugh.

"You stayed up late waiting for me, didn't you?"
His voice was filled with amusement and a hint of gratitude.

I manage a nod as I open my eyes more, but only slightly, just enough to see Yoongi has made me a coffee. I mouth a thank you as I reach out for the mug and bring it too my lips.
"Yes, well... I wanted to go on our walk but you came home really late and I hate walking in pitch black..."

I don't even have to look at him to know that he's nodding solemnly.
"What did you want to say to me?"
I hear him say, his body moving around the kitchen, getting out ingredients and utensils to cook breakfast.

I all of a sudden perk up.
While Yoongi was away, I was texting Jungkook and he reminded me of the amusement park adventure we promised each other and I told him I'd talk to Yoongi about it - since Jungkook got quite the harsh rejection when he asked.

"So... Jungkook and I were talking that time we went over to the maknae's apartment and we spoke about going to an amusement park sometime soon! I was wondering if you'd be okay with it..?"
I say, sounding annoyingly like a kid trying his hardest to get their parents to get them a puppy.

I see Yoongi clench his jaw as he puts his mug down slowly.
I get scared for a second thinking he'll say no and I prepare myself to debate why he should let me.
"Will it be just you and the maknae?"

The question catches me off guard and I don't answer appropriatly.
Curiosity killed the cat in the same moment I neither confirmed nor denied the question.
"Why would it matter? You trust him don't you?"

I turn my head to him, trying to get him to look me in the eye. Instead, he turns his body to the counter top, hand mussels straining as he grips onto the edge of the bench, his nuckles turning white.
"Of course I trust him... I just don't know if he'll keep you safe..."

He sounded as if he was both lying and trying to convince himself of the statement at the same time.
I sigh, not really knowing what was going on inside of his head, but wanting him to stop being so tense.

As a quick solution, I move myself to stand behind him and hug him from behind, both apologeticly and to try and calm him. I feel him relax slightly as I talk.
"It's not going to be just him, Taehyung wants to come with us as well, so I'll have two body guards, not just one!"

I say it to sound light hearted and I smile up at him as he turns around.
He cups my right cheek in his left hand and rubs his thumb across my skin.
I liked how calm it made me feel and I dip my head further into his palm.