First Love

Chapter 11- Revealing Light

As Yoongi held you close against the door of his bedroom, his lips gently against yours, you were at a crossroads. Hearing how he made the choice to hold back and let you go even though he wanted you to stay touched you so much. Then having him confess that he stilled loved you before and even more still, shot directly to your heart.

Touching his face, you pull him back and look into his eyes. You always wanted to be this close to him when before you left. You always wanted to see his eyes filled with love for you when you were together, but you never thought it would be when you were engaged to another man. A man who made decisions without you, who was constantly late, who cared more about his career than you, and who was driving you to do what you were about to do.

“Ji-hyo...I’m sorry aga-”

“Just shut up Yoongs.” you interrupted, pecking his lips gently, each time getting longer and deeper until you had your arms wrapped around his neck. You could feel yourself being picked up around your waist and moved across the room as you moved your kisses to his neck. The light scent of cologne from his clothes hit your nose as you buried yourself into his neck and wrapped your legs around him. When he tried to lay you on the bed, you pulled him down with you causing you to laughs he fell on top of you. Brushing your hair to the side, he kissed your lips and your forehead, as you released your legs from around his waist.

“I love you Ji Ji…”

Hearing those words made your whole body tingle, and accompanied with the kisses he trailed along your exposed neck, just added to it. Unfortunately, you couldn’t bring yourself to say those words back yet.

“Yoongi...I--”

“Shh...you don’t have to say it. Don’t force yourself.”

You closed your eyes, trying to hold back your tears, knowing that all Yoongi wanted was to hear you say it back, but he was giving you time. Hiding the fact you wanted to cry, you covered your face with your hands, making Yoongi laugh.

“I am so sorry Yoongi…” you sniffed through your hands.

“I get it....I don’t want you to feel like you have to do anything just for me.” he said as he pulled your hands from your face, kissing your palms. “I love you no matter what you decide to do.”

Damn it. There was that sweetness that drew you into him. It was something you felt had been lacking with Hyung-Sik for awhile. Sure he brought you flowers and kissed you, but you felt there was practically nothing behind it. When Yoongi spoke to you, you could feel his love in every syllable and every kiss he gave you, so why did you hesitate?

Sitting up on the bed next to Yoongi, you took a breath and quickly pushed Yoongi onto the bed. Straddling his body, you leaned over him and kissed his lips gently as he placed his hands on your waist squeezing a little as your hand traveled down to his pants.

“Ji--I said you didn’t have to.” he said into your lips, his eyes closing.

“I know...I’m not.” you informed him, before sitting up again, taking your hand out of his pocket, your phone now back in your possession.

“Before we go any further….I need to talk to him Yoongi. It’s only fair.” you whispered as you quickly got up, turning on your phone. What if you were making a mistake and you were about to hurt a man you promised your future to.

“Ji-hyo please...just forget him for today.”

“Yoongi I made a promise. I am supposed to marry him. He loves me and I love him still.” you said as you watched your phone light up with at least 30 text messages and 10 missed calls, all from Hyung-Sik.