First Love

Chapter 12- Fighting For Love

Yoongi couldn’t believe it. He had finally confessed to the woman he loved and it only took 3 years. He didn’t even care that she was engaged any more, he just wanted her and he made sure to pass those feelings on into the kiss he gave her.

Feeling her pull away, he took the opportunity to look into her eyes, conveying every ounce of love he had for her. In her eyes, Yoongi could tell she was confused, but that it was clouded by something else. Still, he felt a tinge of regret for springing his confession on her and then practically pushing her against a door to kiss her. He couldn’t help but to apologize to her, for which he received a different response than he anticipated. He expected a slap, or a lecture, but instead he was told to shut up and her lips were back against his.

He didn’t even want to question it or ask if she was sure, he just wrapped his arms around her and carried her toward the bed, wanting all of her at that moment. He could hardly control himself as she put her face closer to his neck and snaked her legs around his waist. He just wanted to get her to the bed before his all the blood and strength from his legs went somewhere else.

Yoongi laughed as he laid her on the bed, mostly because she was laughing at the fact she pulled him down. She seemed in a much better mood now and Yoongi only wanted to see her smile always. Touching her hair, he stared at her face, her smile the most wonderful he had ever seen. Kissing her smile and her forehead, he felt he needed to confess again, just in case she changed her mind and she refused to hear it.

“I love you Ji Ji.” he whispered her nickname near her ear, as he kissed her neck. He knew she couldn’t say it back just yet, and he was okay with it. Just as long as she knew how he felt, he was okay. Seeing her cry with the internal struggle between him and Hyung-Sik was not okay though. Taking her hands, he kissed them gently, holding them in his own, trying to reassure her as she apologized.

“I get it...I don’t want you to feel like you have to do anything for me.”

He didn’t want her to feel pressured to sleep with him, leave Hyung-Sik, or even love him. He just wanted her to be happy no matter what she decided in the end.

He wasn’t expecting when she pushed him down on the bed. Her actions didn’t match up with her emotional state and it worried Yoongi, watching her straddle him as she kissed him, with tears staining her cheeks. He couldn’t help but grab her waist, giving her a cautionary squeeze, knowing he was close to losing his control.

“Ji--I said you didn’t have to.”

It was getting even worse when she moved to kiss him, her body sliding a bit, rubbing against him, causing him to hold back a groan. He held himself back when he felt her hand enter into his pants pocket, her hand brushing against him from the inside of his pocket.

Keep calm...keep calm…

Yoongi kept repeating the mantra, waiting to see what she would do next , but she surprised him by taking out her phone that he took earlier.

“Before we go any further...I need to talk to him Yoongi.”

Sitting up after she got off of him, Yoongi sighed as he leaned back on his hands a little. Deep down he knew she was right, but he really didn’t want her to call him. He didn’t want some sweet lies from that cheating bastard to cause her to go back to him. She deserved better.

“Ji-hyo please….just forget him for today.” he pleaded, he just wanted her to be in a good mood for at least today before the reality of the man she was planning on marrying was revealed.

She wouldn't listen, Yoongi supposed that was part of why he loved her. She was so considerate of the feelings of others, despite how much they didn't deserve it, but he got worried when he saw tears run down her face. Getting up quickly, he went to hug her, but he was stopped with a glance, making him stop in his tracks as she told him she needed to leave because Hyung-Sik loved her.