Him

Chapter Twenty

Hannah's P.O.V.

"Hannah, do you love me?"

No.

No.

Shit.

No.

He did not just ask me that question, did he? How am I supposed to answer that? I, myself, don't even know the answer. I'm so confused, I don't even know what feelings I'm having right now.

"Please answer me, I need to know. I can't stand not being able to know how you feel, Hannah. I'm not afraid to tell you my feelings, why are you?" Ross looked me in the eyes, his beautiful brown eyes sad.

"Ross, I-I don't know..."

"How do you not know your feelings?!" I can tell he's getting angry, he shoved me off of his lap and stood up, "Are you that dim minded??"

"Ro-"

"No, I don't want to hear it! I'm leaving." Ross put his pants on and started walking out.

"Where are you going?! You can't just leave, idiot!" Now I was getting a little pissed off.

"I'm staying with Riker and Rocky!"

He left me alone in the room. It was so quiet, I can't stand it.

Why did he get that mad? Am I making him suffer?

I'm such a horrible person. All I do is lead Ross on, and all he does is get hurt by me.

I hate myself.

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I couldn't sleep, so I decided to skype my best friend, Libby.

As I waited for her to answer, I put my shirt back on. It was still off from when Ross yanked it off.

"What up, slut?" Libby's voice rang through my laptops speakers.

"Ayyye girly! I miss you!" I ran over to the laptop, jumping on the bed.

"What up slut I missed you're face a little too!" As she's hanging upside down off her bed talking to the camera.

"Aww, I missed your rachet ass face, too!"

"So how's you're relationship with the guy you've hated since you were three?"

"Oh, did you hear about what happened? It's not true, Ross lied to all the fans. It started as a prank for his family, but then things turned for the worse. We aren't really together." I quickly explained, I don't want her to get the wrong idea. Ross and I aren't together.

"You're in deep shit now. Why don't you just fake a break up. Unless..... You actually like him."

"Whaaaat?! No... I don't know, maybe? I'm so confused!"

"I know, I can see it in you're eyes. I think you're only confused because of Julian. But Ross is nothing like Julian and you know it." Saying this as she's literally making out with her dogs back!?!?

"Um... You having fun there?" I try changing the subject.

"Hannah!! I know what you're doing. So why not give Ross a try?"

"I, ugh, I can't! I couldn't even if I try, he's mad at me right now."

"Sure.. And why's he mad at you???"

"I refused to tell him how I feel about him... But I don't even know how I feel about him. I think I have feelings, but I don't know." I put my head in my hands and sigh, why is my life so complicated?!