The life I was born into

Bond

Joey POV

So today I'm back in Italy and imma see my lil man Romeo I miss him and I miss my wife ! I'm ready to be back home.

I grabbed my anticonvulsant pill bottle and took 2. I haven't been on my medication for months ! But today imma be around my son and I don't want to act out.

I hate that I'm bipolar but that's life I also take it because I suffer from mild schizophrenia. So sometimes I black out and I don't really know or care what's going on. I've done a lot of fucked up shit but I can't help it. My obsession with miles doesn't help at all it triggers all my emotions and it makes me want to do anything just to get a piece of her and feel her presence.

Thank god my son didn't develop any of my conditions. Hopefully my unborn child won't either.

I hopped into the shower and washed off really quick. I put on my polo grey , green and orange shirt with my light denim true religion jeans and my Lebron XI low " floridians". I combed through my now curly hair and put on my Rolex.

Alexandrea had me meeting her at some park so I wasn't really dressed.

When I arrived there I saw my son and couldn't help but smile. Him and Alexandrea were running around in the grass and laughing. This is what makes my life worth living.

I walked over and cleared my throat.

Rom: daddy ! I miss you mama say you on trip you had fun ?

I laughed at his excitement. I know this little boy is about to run my ear off.

Me: well hello to you Romeo yes I had fun I went to see mom-mom

I said while picking him up.

Rom: why you go go mom-mom not with me ?

Me: daddy needed sometime to him self he's very sick

He gasp and hugged around my neck.

Rom: I make it all better

I kissed his forehead and turned my attention to Alexandrea. I smiled at her now huge baby bump. She was glowing.

Me: hey babe

She looked at me with no emotion.

Lex: hi

Me: so update me on the baby.

I missed out on a lot because I really wanted to keep myself away. I started off doing bad things in Atlanta and my moms caught on and forced me to go back into a treatment center.

Lex: well I'll be 8 months in two days but you should know that considering the fact that you up in disappeared for almost 4 months........ But uh it's a surprise gender because I wanted to wait as for names I'm thinking Nicolette for a girl and Jules or Julius for a boy. But how's life on your end.

I put rom down because I have a lot of explaining to do.

Me: rom go find some pretty flowers for mommy

He ran into the grass while me and Alexandrea sat on the bench.

Me: well one sorry for being gone so long it was only suppose to be 2 weeks but my sickness made it longer.

Lex: sickness ?!

Me: ok let me explain everything when I left Italy I went back to atl I came back here a few times only for my reasons. I slept with zeniya at least 3 times during those visits. I began to act out and black out from time to time. My mom noticed and went to seek help. One moment I was happy then angry then sad and then the next I was talking to people in my head and then I would become a whole different person and remember what that person did or done. I stayed in the treatment center for 1 months and the other month I bettered myself before I came face to face with my son...... Moral of it is that I am bipolar and I suffer from a mild schizophrenia. I have to take my medicine and if I don't I act out and then memories of what my other personality did will come back and make my emotions scatter.