Love Awaits

eight

a/n. sorry for taking a bit to update, i've been in a downer mood lately so 

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It's been several days since Calum last talked to me, I've been enjoying spending my time with Ashton and going to see Michael so Ashton can have his family time.

But there was this one visit to Michaels room where I couldn't handle seeing him like that anymore, he was on the edge of dying and I couldn't do anything about it. The worst part is none of us know what got him into a comma except that Harry Styles guy. 

"Nevaeh?" Luke asks as I sit beside Michaels bed.

"Yes?"

"Do you think he's gonna live?" He starts to tear up.

"Luke, I honestly don't know. But we have to keep hoping he will" I whisper.

I look away from Luke and look at Mikey, the way he breathes, how he looks while asleep, and then I wondered, what if he passes away? What will happen? What would it be like if he wasn't there to cheer you up when you're down? Give you the last slice of his pizza because he loves you that much? Not sing to you and your bestfriends when you have nothing better to do? What would it be like without him keeping all of us amused? A bunch of  'What ifs' go through my head, I couldn't help but breakdown right infront of Luke. 

He quickly went to comfort me saying he knows how it feels and picks me up to sit me down and looks at me right in the eyes

"Nevaeh you are the strongest woman I know, putting up with your mom all the time, going through what you saw that horrific night, having to go through all those fake friends and most of all putting up with my mates and I all the time, you are beautiful and smart and I believe you can work hard to get what you wan't" He smiles.

"Luke." I say quietly.

"Nevaeh" he says back.

"Can I tell you what I wan't?" I say.

"You can tell me anything" 

"I wan't Calum-" 

"What? Like for a relationship or?" he's confused.

"No, I wan't Calum as in I wan't him around me, put in effort to talk to me, be a friend." I sigh, but I don't mean that.

"Just ask him then." he huffs.

"He hates me Luke" I bury my face into my hands.

"No he doesn't, he loves you. Can't you see?" he points out.

"I doubt that." I get up.

"Thank you Luke for letting me let my feelings out but I don't think you were a help in the end there. I'm sorry, i love you" I give him a weak smile and walk out.

Asshole move Nevaeh. I think to myself.

I walk into Ashton's room when I see him peacefully asleep.

I see Anne and she smiles.

"Nevaeh dear, I'm so glad you're here." She gives me a hug.

"I have to go and the nurse said someone has to watch over him at this time, mind to take over?" She shrugs smiling.

"I don't mind, have a nice day." I smile.

I sit on the edge of his bed then move up so I'm on my knees on the floor, I stroke his hair.

"Ash" I whisper.

He mumbles something.

"Ash baby you have to get up, it's time for you to take your medication."