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Heart Strings Chapter Twenty Five

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I don’t know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too.

Chloe Woodward

-Sephy P.O.V-

 

Nathan would never like me now, never. There was no chance. He wouldn't; not after I fled. I knew now that even if he used me like the rest of the girls he'd had something with over the years, even if I had just that that would be okay because I would have had something; anything. But now he would give up on me because I couldn't even let him kiss me once. No. Instead I had to take off. And it had been so good. So...what I wanted.

I shivered momentarily. Damn winter. Damn Nathan. Damn Love.

Damn me.

Sitting up from the fortress that was my bed, I made a mental note to keep away from everyone. They were all there with him now, weren’t they? Had they noticed I’d left? Would he tell them? I crossed over to my piano and lowered myself to the stool. I had heavy tears in my eyes that refused to stay where they belonged. I'd ruined it. My heart ached for my friendship with Tabby back. For Adam to be his usual gay self, For Nick to stop stalking me. For Nathan to be more...

Hesitantly I placed my hands on the familiar keys of my darling piano which I had neglected for so long. My head had already begun to calm. I closed my eyes as I pushed down on middle C, my lips stretching into a smile as the rich sound enveloped me. This was where I was meant to be; here I felt safe. No matter how hard I tried, no songs I was meant to be learning came to mind, my head was empty. I was empty. Needing to hear to sound of the piano I let my hands roll and I let my heart play. Salty tears slipped down my cheeks into my lips and splashed against my fingers and the ivory keys, having their own chance to sing and before I realised, I was singing too.

‘It's because my thoughts revolve around you,

My whole body yearns only for your heart,

Your eyes completely heal me, they renew,

When I'm with you I never want to part,

It's you. You are my Mr. Rochester.

It’s true, with you I want to be-

I know that I'm in love, but what can I do?

I don't want to stop being in love with you.

Yet your flirtatious ways break me in half,

You lead me on and I fall for your trap,

Your heart is cold and hollow is your laugh,

I know you too well; I don't need a map,

It's you. You are my Mr. Rochester.

It’s true, with you I want to be-

I know that I'm in love, but what can I do?

I don't want to stop being in love with you.

Your heart pulls my own hearts delicate strings,

Suddenly I'm back in your arms again,

My heart skips a beat when my mobile rings,

On my way back to little heartbreak lane,

I know that I'm in love, but what can I do?

I don't want to stop being in love with you.

It's you. You are my Mr. Rochester

It's true. You are my Mr. Rochester-‘

 

A creak sounded behind me and I could barely contain my scream when I turned around to find Nathan staring at me with those electric blue eyes. For a second, you could hear a pin drop.

'That sounds like a nice song. Is it new?' He asked me quietly.

I nodded slowly then said, 'How did you get in?'

'The door just opened.'

'Oh.' My voice was a single croak.

There was a long silence. Questions were begging to be asked but I didn't want to be the first. After a moment, Nathan let himself in and shut the door behind him. I eased off the piano bench and stepped towards him, stopping an arm’s length away. Nathan coughed, more for something to do than having a tickle in his throat.

'Why did you come?' I asked eventually unable to handle the curiosity. He looked outside the window.

'I don't know. To apologise.'

I looked up. Right into his eyes as they looked back to me. He looked so different to his usual smiley self. Less smiley. This seemed to be the effect I was having on everyone. Tears crept down my cheeks but I couldn't bring myself to rub my stinging eyes. Nathan's eyes left mine and followed my tear tracks. He lifted his hand as if he was going to wipe them away but seemed to think better of it and averted his eyes. I looked down. That touch could have convinced me that we'd be okay.

'It was a mistake,' he said simply, yet his voice was strained.

'Kissing me was a mistake?!' I cried, meaning it to sound fierce. It came out as a frustrated squeak. I was wrong; I wasn't even important enough to be another kiss in his list of many. He had probably just turned and we'd somehow collided. But we kept kissing didn't we? He didn't stop... I did.

'Yes. It was. It's not that I haven't wanted to-'

I gasped a little as my heart skipped a beat, earning an annoyed glance from Nathan.

'It's not like you haven't noticed Sephy. I thought you knew, I thought you-' He sighed before stopping himself. My squeal of discomfort was almost inaudible. I didn't know but I wanted you to. So much. I'm sorry I messed it up.

Why couldn't I just say these things out loud?

Nathan glared at me. 'But it was a mistake. And you know what? I completely regret it.'

Those four words were breaking me down. My head was ached and I couldn't feel my heart anymore; I was dying slowly. Yet like the idiot I was, I whispered, 'good.' He nodded as he glanced at the window again.

'That's okay.' He coughed. 'Looks like Nick's here.' And he left my room. I barely acknowledged what he said about Nick. All I knew was I was falling apart. I needed Nathan. To be with me. To be happy. To smile again. I needed Nathan.

*A/N*  

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