《 Impossible 》~ kian1392 a.i

~~> 8 ♥

Bethany :

people have different ideas.

The sentence that was running in my mind on full speed . The same time I was holding back my tears, I promised myself three years ago that I won't shed any drop of tear over people. I just think they're not worth it.

Because sometimes in some situations, they say things they shouldn't, things they don't believe that it would ever come out of their mouth, I for myself do it, after all we are humans. so I forgive them. The minute they start regretting their choice of words . mainly because I know I will face this situation too and on that time, I expect them to forgive me too.

we are humans, and humans need to make mistakes.

but sometimes, it crosses the limit, some people make more mistakes than they should.

it causes them troubles.

When I was 9, I had a friend named Isabel. I loved her name so I forced myself to love herself too, she made lots of mistakes, she used to steal my things, argue with me and lie that they were hers . I forgave her once, twice, but finally one day I looked at myself in the mirror and wondered,

how many times do I have to forgive her?

it could come to a high number and one day I would realize I was being miss used. so I stopped. I looked her in the eye and said: " hey issie, I'm tired of forgiving you, all you ever tell me is bullshit and I'm just, I'm just done with it, actually Isabel I'm done with you" she was indeed surprised. staring at me blankly until she decided to open her mouth and mumble a

"you are not doing it" and I replied a "I'm so doing it" and started to walk as far as I can away from her . But one word kept ringing in my ears after she shouted a "stupid" that echoed through the hall way the same time it echoed through my soul . that was when I came to a conclusion.

you can never force yourself to love someone.

Today, 14th of September, I bumped into a person. like I usually do. I looked up to see whom it is she and lookimg at me with disgust. I didn't expect her to say such thing so when she mouthed a "watch your way,stupid" I freaked out and yelled "I'm not freaking stupid".

now while standing in front of the front porch of my house, I start digging in my pockets for the keys.

"shit" why there isn't any key?

"shit, shit , shit" the keys are in the house and Alyssa is not in this town, what should I do?

I don't know what kind of sense started growing up in me but the first thought of me for not laying like homeless people on the street again, was Ashton and his band mates house. It's not the right time to keep my pride- I thought while running to their Avenue. I let out a sigh of relief when I saw the beautiful white house I was hours ago,

knock.

knock.

knock.

I was ready to knock another time but the door suddenly bursted open causing me to scream and fall to the floor.

"oh my," I knew who's voice that belonged to even with not looking up.

"what are you doing here?" I slowly stand up and look at him apologicaly,

"hey...Ashton, I, I forgot the keys in our house and, Alyssa is not here and I just didn't know were to go and, I'm sorry I didn't want to,--"

"you can"

"what?!" he looks at me with tired eyes. like he doesn't want to even talk to me, but finally answers,

" I'm telling you can stay here the night, God you ramble a lot" that's the point where my anger boils,