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by killerambrose

by killerambrose

ambrose's pov

HE'D ADMITTED HIS FEELINGS and his jealousy and everything he said about Luke, Alexander had said all those things and then he walked away. I didn't know how to feel but i did know that i'd hurt him, i don't know what came over me. But the tears that ran down his face and i'm the one who caused them.

I felt sick.

Marla stared at me a hard look on her face.

" you refuse to let him hang out with Draco and get jealous only to bring his hopes up and then decide to lie about you and Luke having sex are you actually crazy? " she said angrily

I was lost for words.

" I knew what i did was wrong but i thought i was protecting him and yet i still put him through all that pain, he won't forgive me and i know that "

" I love him and i thought he didn't feel the same way but obviously i've ruined it i've hurt him too much this time " i said quietly

" go to him and explain yourself but don't expect him to forgive you and if you hurt him even more i'll kill you " she said angrily.

I began to walk away before being stopped by Marla again.

" He's loved you forever you know since we came here and even when we were gone let's hope you haven't broken his heart " she whispered before walking away.

I ran out of the school and towards the mortuary hoping i still had time, i'd called Luke to meet me there catching him up on the situation. He was more than angry at me and it'd taken quite a while to convince him to help me.

When i'd arrived Luke was waiting in my room looking less than impressed with me and i just asked him to go get Alexander. Then he was gone and about 10 later he returned with Alexander beside him.

He was still crying and as Luke began to leave he pulled him into a hug which Luke returned promising to call him later, it seems they'd talked in the time Luke had gone to get him.

" have you gone to coffee with Draco yet " i said softly

" No i called and rescheduled for later tonight i don't want him seeing me like this " he said sniffling

" oh okay " i said quietly

" just get to the point Ambrose you've hurt me enough today don't waste my time even more " he said harshly though he choked on his tears.

My heart having to see him like this especially if it was my fault, i asked him to sit down and he complied sitting at the edge of my bed. I then asked him to please listen to me and then if he couldn't forgive me he could leave.

" I'm sorry i truly am for lying to you and hurting you and especially leading you along and you don't have to forgive me but i hope you do. I didn't mean for it to be like this i just couldn't find a way to express my feelings " i said pausing when he began to speak.

" so you express them by trying to ruin my friendship with Draco and leading me on and especially lying about Luke " he said harshly not looking at me.

" I love you Alexander i always have and seeing you around Draco and seeing how obviously he liked you, I don't know it made me jealous and act like a total ass "

" I just thought you'd never return my feelings but then you started to show maybe you did so i hurt you in the hope you'd find someone better but i couldn't let my feelings go and i hurt you so much " i said finally done.

" I can't be around you right now, stay away from me Ambrose " he said before running out of my room tears flooding his eyes