I T ' S O K A Y
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Third person's POV
Y/n wasn't a normal girl. She had a rough life but everyone did, nobody is perfect in this world.
She had problems with her family.
Her sister was on drugs and she was on the streets because she wasn't allowed home anymore. She almost overdosed on the streets but luckily she survived.
But y/n never thought about her sister. She didn't miss her for one second. She was the reason she couldn't see her nephew anymore.
Y/n missed her nephew even more than her own sister. Her nephew's dad didn't let her whole family see him. He had full custody.
Y/n's older sister had two kids which's meant that she had to other nephews and she loved them very much but her sister and her kids were moving to Arizona to live over there with her boyfriend which was the father of the kids.
Y/n was going to be left alone with her parents and they weren't doing too good. They had to worry every damm night about their older daughter being ok or not.
Y/n couldn't deal with the stress so that's why she never cared. She was heartless sometimes but she knew she had to be there for her parents.
Y/n at one point wanted to do the same thing as her sister but he was there.
Jack was his name.
Y/n's POV
I woke up next to Jack starting at me.
"Can I help you?" I asked with a laugh "No, you could just stay like that." he said with he's adorable smile.
I looked at my phone and it was 9:03 am and I knew I over slept. My body rushed up and I looked for my shoes. I found them and I quickly put them on causing me to fall down.
"Are you ok?" Jack said laughing "Now is not the time, Avery." you said seriously, standing up from the cold wooden floor.
You grabbed your phone and your keys then looked at Jack "Can you give me a ride?" I asked with a smile.
"Ughhh, you're lucky I love you." He said as he got out of bed.
He put on a shirt and his shoes. We soon, walked down to his car.
I checked my phone as I was walking downstairs and I had 14 missed calls from my mom and 3 from my dad.
"Shit." I cursed under my breath. "You'll get home, don't worry." Jack said, putting his hand on my shoulder.
"Your family's still sleeping right?" I asked jack "What do you think?"he said in sassy tone
We laughed. We were in his car and he took me home.
I looked around the neighborhood and it was so nice and made with expensive building materials but as soon as we entered my neighborhood all I saw was gang members hanging out and people laying down in the bus stop.
I hated this place sometimes.
We pulled up to my apartment and I saw gang members eyeing his car. I quickly got out and leaned on the window with my hands.
"I'll text you later, please be careful." I said seriously.
"I will, now go home" He said as he smiled.
I walked to the front door of my apartment and opened the door due to the fact the lock was ripped out and the manager hasn't put in a new one.
I walked to the elevator and pressed on a button waiting for the lift to come down.
My eyes slowly closed for a couple of seconds but then I heard the elevator 'ding', so I opened my eyes and walked in. I pushed the number 3 since I do live on the 3rd floor.
Fuck, I'm going to get my ass yelled at.
I walked to my apartment door and knocked on it. My mom opened the door and let me in.
I saw my nephews eating their breakfast with my mother and my dad was obviously at work.
"Where were you?" I heard my mom ask.
"I was with Jack." I said rubbing my eye.
"Oh, don't come home late again" She said letting me off easy since she knows Jack is a good guy.
He's helped us out a lot.
I went to my room and I laid on my bed.
My parents slept outside in the living room while my sister and her kids took the other room.
Yeah I did have my own room and that was because the room was to small for all 3 of us.
I checked my back pocket to grab my phone but it wasn't there. I've must have left it in Jack's car.
I grabbed a pillow and put it over my face. Everything was good until my mom knocked on the door "Your sister left you this, we saw her at the hospital and she wanted me to give it to you." she said handing me and envelope. I took it and my mom left.
Why all of a sudden does she want to talk to me?
I soon open the letter. "Y/n I'm sorry I haven't been there to get everything into place but I have a problem and I don't know when it will stop or even if I can stop, just make sure you never do the same thing as me. I want you to have a better life than me." That's it. That is what was what the letter had only said.
Fuck this shit.
She doesn't want me to do the same thing. I will do it.
I got up from my bed with tears starting to escape from my eyes. I went outside and I saw my mom cleaning up my nephews well my sister was somewhere.
She looked at me and I walked out of the door.
I looked at my left and right and I knew what I had to do. This is what I was afraid to do but I'm doing it anyways. I went to my neighbor and asked him for some heroin.
He gave me everything prepared, all I needed was to heat it up on the spoon and put it in a syringe and put it in my veins to take effect.
He let me off free since I did him a favor last time.
I went downstairs next to the staircase and sat down. I was serious about this. My hands knew what they were doing and so did I.
As I got my lighter I was crying so much that I couldn't see.
Everything happens for a reason.
As I put the liquid into the syringe I put it on top of my vein.
Nothing could stop me at this point or at least that's what I thought.
Someone pulled the syringe away from me and threw it somewhere, I couldn't see. I looked up and it was Jack.
"I'm sorry." I said crying into his arms. I was breathing heavily and I guess Jack came back to give me my phone or he knew something was wrong.
I let out all of my pain and sorrow out.
"Shh, it's okay."
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Drugs are never the answer guys please don't ever do them💜 -m
self harming too, even though the blade/drug may always seem tempting. don't do it, it's not good for your health. even though i'm bad at comforting people, you can always talk to me on choiyounxjae , i'll be a listening ear for all of you. -n
