S O O N
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Jonah's POV
I miss her.
I miss her voice, her laugh, her smile and even the way she used to make fun of me.
I never knew that I could miss someone this much.
Loving someone was so easy for me. But letting go forever wasn't.
Once in a lifetime you get someone you love but then some takes away the person you love.
She meant everything to me.
All I wanted to do right now is just cry.
Cry because I can't love her anymore.
Cry because I can't have her.
Cry because I can't even hold her.
That's the only option I have. I can't be happy. When I met her she made my life so much better.
Because of her I wasn't an addict anymore. She help me get thru every little single problem I had.
She was a lovable person.
Now that she's gone I can't think of anything besides going back to my addiction.
I want her to be with me.
Or at least I wanna be with her.
So why not be with her.
I got out of my bed.
Went to my bathroom.
Looked at myself in the mirror and took a deep breath.
I went downstairs and saw the boys in the living room so I quietly went inside the kitchen and grabbed a knife.
Looking at my five best friends for one last time was hard.
They deserve a proper goodbye.
I put the knife next to the stair case and went into the living room.
"Hey"zach said.
"Hey" I said back.
"You ok?" Corbyn asked.
" not better" I respond.
They looked at me and just stood up.
We got into a group hug and I slowly started to tear up.
" I love you guys" I said as I hugged them all.
" we love you too bro" Daniel said as He patted my back.
I got out of the hug and they all sat back down.
I took one last look and barely smiled.
As I left the living room I grabbed the knife again and headed upstairs.
I locked my door and got out a peace of paper and pen.
I wrote it down.
Once I was done writing it I went into my bathroom and looked at myself and held the knife against my neck.
" I'll see you soon my love" I said as I slit my throat.
"Soon"
