Rewind And Drown Again

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gluttony in white
Through the years of growing up, the colour of loneliness in our eyes became a privilege. The older you got, the more you embraced the beauty of singularity. Oh you gladly took the pills it handed you, and the chemicals of loneliness kept running through your veins, every morning once again. But it's clearer than the sun, that we're more human than anything. And gluttony got the best of you.  It could never be enough. Every second in our presence seemed to be torture for you, as your addicted mind couldn't handle the lack of binging on loneliness. You always needed more, and it overwhelmed you. Alone was always better, the less people the less distraction, you'd say. Alone was always better, the less people the less chance of breaking the thin ice, you'd think. Because singularity was comfortable, it seemed to you. But the gluttony for loneliness was breaking all of your relationships apart, and it was ruining both of us.

gluttony in black
Through the years of growing up, the colour of loneliness in our eyes became a privilege. And I seemed to have been extremely affected by that. Because while the air became thicker and thicker, breathing became a tiring fight. So I decided, that in my room, all oxygen was mine. And no one should enter. During the years that had passed by earlier, I had basically heard you turn the key, locking yourself up in your own space, without there even being a physical lock. And believe me, the poison in the air these days, had invited enough demons into my lungs already. But realising how you'd been so eager to turn away from us, broke me. And ever since, I'm torn between healing and dying. Because I'm choking, so all air is mine, no matter how poisoned. And my worries take in so much space, I won't allow you to come so close you push them away. So I'm locking myself up, without there even being a physical lock. And behind those closed doors, I've met the beauty of singularity. Oh it's so wonderful, I'd want it to stay with me forever. It's painful but mine and it has started shaping me. What a coincidence I've been dying for a form to be given to me. But this gluttony for loneliness is breaking all of my relationships apart,
and it is ruining both of us.