I know it's been a very long time, but I figured it wouldn't hurt to update. We did end up moving to Arkansas for the step-dad(C), and we now have a house here that we're fixing up a bit. The school district I moved into isn't bad, and I'm kinda glad we did, because the choir program is really well off. There's a whole lot more funding for schools here than in Kansas, which is nice. My school choir has actually been chosen to perform as the featured choir in the Festival at Carnegie Hall this year, which is AMAZING. I've literally been dreaming of performing at Carnegie since I was like 7 with a bow in my hands (violin), and while I dreamed it then with an instrument other than my voice, it's amazing that I can now. At 17, no less! I'm really hoping that I get the money to go...
It wouldn't be my first time in NYC, though. I went there last year or so during the summer for a thing called Camp Rising Sun, which is an international camp for supposed up-and-comers. I got kicked out, though... Long story short, I had mentioned my personal political belief that everyone is racist/biased, and that I need to come to terms with and constantly be aware of that in myself, but I worded it terribly. I had never had to explain that stance before, and hadn't prepared an argument for it (which is unusual for me, but I had barely just accepted the idea of it and such), so I essentially dug myself the largest hole you've ever seen on the topic of racism. Yeeeppp... Not my best moment.
I do apologize for the many errors in the writing of previous chapters, but I was mostly using text-to-speech with a time constraint then, and I cared more about updating than the quality. I suppose this is my personal journal though, so that's a reasonable attitude.
I'm in 11th grade now, and this is my schedule:
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1- Chamber Choir
2- Teacher Cadet 1, CC
3- Advisory/Homeroom
4- AP Language Arts
5A- AP Government/Politics
5B- AP Macroeconomics
2ND LUNCH(mine)
6- Spanish 1
7- Interested Chemistry
8A- Pre-AP College Algebra, CC
8B- Pre-Calc/Trigonometry, CC
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I took Pre-AP Chem at the beginning of the year, but dropped it bc I couldn't handle the RIDICULOUS WORKLOAD of all those advanced classes combined without sacrificing a great deal of my actual life and mental health (stress).
In case you didn't know(it confused me the first time I saw the format), the As and Bs are simply there to represent 1st vs 2nd semester.
Also, CC stands for Concurrent Credit, which basically means I'm taking a college class through my high school and getting college credit through said college. Yes, they gave me a college ID and everything. They're better for me bc my school pays for the classes (and gets a discount too), so I don't have to pay and take those classes in my letter years at University.
Since it's been a few years, here's my previous school schedules as well:
10th Grade:
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1- Chamber Choir
2A- Health
2B- PE
3- Advisory
4- Pre-AP Biology, CC
5- Advanced Algebra 2
6- AP World History (I got a 3 on the test)
7-
8A- Music Tech/Appreciation
8B- Investments? Some financial class.
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9th Grade:
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1- Advanced Geometry
2- Advisory
3- AP US History
4- Pre-AP ELA
5- EAST(Environmental and Spatial Technologies; you basically teach yourself to use tech and stuff and work on projects all year, it was fun)
LUNCH
6- Advanced Female Chorus, 9th
7- FCS(Family Consumer Sciences)
8- Physical Sciences/Chemistry
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I've made new friends, too. Old ones though... Rose and Dil still send a message sometimes and we still hang out when I come around for the holidays, but it's (of course) not the same. Salsa is never around when I come, and her and Rose had a falling out when I was gone, as she's supposedly changed. Rose says they never talk anymore, and when she got to High School, she attached herself to a preppier group of kids and stopped being nice (not that it was a great amount of kindness in her personality before then). I kinda suspected that would happen, but idk... I figured she'd at least still talk if she ran into Rose, much less make a nasty comment. Damn shame, really. She (of course) is still nice to me, even though I never really talk to her. She never sees me, so she has no reason to be mean, and I'm always the one that backs down first... Or, at least, I was. I think I'm better at standing up to friends now, but one can never be too sure. I'm not on bad terms with any old friends though... Just distanced. Not that it could've been anything more. Out of sight, out of mind, right? The same thing is going to happen when I go of to college... I'll have people in my contacts of course, but it's not like I'll ever really use it again.
My stepdad is still a jerk. I've got video from just last week on New Year's, wanna see? JK... I can't put videos on here w/o it being published to YouTube, and even if I could, I'd put it on a separate chapter with a long trigger warning.
I think I read somewhere that abusive(even emotionally) people are reckless drivers, and it's true... C doesn't care much for speed limits or slow braking.
We live with my stepbrother ¥ now, but the older one, €, C lost custody of. Son for a son, I suppose. Though ¥ is now more of my brother than C's son, based on the level of liking each other (none of us kids like C). Definitely gonna move out when I'm 18.
E is really into Fortnite now. He's watching streams atm.
Currently, I have hives. Not exactly sure what from, but who cares, it sucks anyways.
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What I look like now... Glo up? Maybe.
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Non-FictionI have decided to keep a diary of the events that unfold, because sometimes the years fly past so fast it's terrifying. Updated hopefully every day, and the whole online thing is mostly so I don't lose it/lose interest... Feel free to comment and re...
