The devil within

Now I Awaken

I must of passed out at some point because now instead of continuous darkness I see white walls and I can feel the chill that has settled in my bones . I try to sit up but struggled , as I look around my body I see tubes of various sizes all going to and from my body . What's going on ? I think to myself , did someone find me ? Was I even lost ? Vivian ? I thought as more and more unanswered questions popped into my now throbbing head .

I remember stepping off the stool in my room and Vivian whispering that I'd be okay , omg my mother must have found me ! I gasped internally , is she here ? How am I going to face her now ? I questioned myself again . " mom ?"  I croaked out , my voice feeling unused , suddenly I saw the form of my mother come rushing to my side
" thank god your okay ! Why did you do it you stupid girl ?! You scared the crap out of me !" But I couldn't answer , I couldn't even cry . I felt like I had been sucked dry of everything I needed .  A mirror , I need a mirror . I need to see  I thought to myself as I struggled to keep my eyes open . I'll try when I'm stronger I reassured myself .

I couldn't feel Vivian anymore. It was strange that it felt so ....lonely . We hadn't been bonded that long but I still missed her presence in the recesses of my mind . I wonder if I'll see her still if I look in the mirror , no I'm glad she's gone . I can't believe I listened to her . Wait if I'm here then ..she isn't in my body . So what was the point in getting me to kill myself ? I wondered again now slipping into a deep sleep . I welcomed the peaceful darkness

*4 hours later *

When I opened my eyes again I was still in the white room but I felt more energised , the cold that lingered in my bones has gone and been replaced by a dull ache just about everywhere, I try and sit up this time succeeding and when I gazed around  I realised I was in a hospital room. 

My mother is nowhere to be seen either, I look down to see what state I'm in and realise the tubes had gone and I could freely move now, I slid my legs over the side of the bed and attempted to stand and stumbled at the lack of use of my legs " this is going to be harder than I thought" I muttered out loud surprising myself with how strong my voice sounded despite  how I sounded last time I spoke. After managing to stand I noticed a mirror placed behind a sink suddenly the voice of Vivian popped into my head the most that will happen is that you'll look different  her voice whispered in the back of my mind.
It wouldn't hurt to look right?

I stumbled as I tried to reach the mirror and when I did I nearly fell over at how different I looked, I thought I'd change dramatically last time boy was I wrong, as I looked closer I felt a new found confidence branch out inside me. I knew I looked good, better than those girls at school, i could make them pay for everything they did to me  I thought to myself as a chuckle left my lips.

"Oh how they would pay " I said out loud while still staring at my new self

This is going to be fun...

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