Last Few Days

Chapter - 12

[Darshan]:
'Why can't you see her love for you? Can't you see that whenever she's with you, she feels so good; she wanted to spend the last few days of her life with you; she wanted to have you back', Shubh's words continuously revolved in my head, making me feel more guilty with each second that passed. I sat on the bed and couldn't sleep, after I came from Aaruhi's room, I was restless, uncomfortable and what not. Shubh and I didn't had a word, I had thought that he'll blow up, but he came and slept without uttering even a single word. "Can't sleep?", Shubh asked. I looked towards him, he lied besides me, looking at me. I shook my head, "I'm sorry.... I really am", I whispered and looked away. He sat up straight and held my upper arm. "I am sorry too", he said. "You don't have to be, you did right", I said and turned to look at him. "You still love her right?", Shubh asked. My heart started beating faster and I was confused what to answer as I myself didn't know. "The way you reacted, the way you got angry, clearly implies that you do", he added and I don't know when I nodded my head in agreement. "Okay, so if we are actually talking about this, I want to share something with you", I said. Although I was not that close to him to share my feelings, but I needed to share with someone what I carried inside me since last year. "I love her. I know I was wrong and I should not have done what I did, but I did it in anger. I was completely mad, I didn't know what I was doing and I didn't even think once before doing anything. But trust me, I regretted doing it a lot. There was not even a single day I spent without thinking about her. I tried to message her, but she had blocked me, and why not, after all I gave her so much pain", I said and a tear rolled down from my left eye. "Then what about Shruti?", he asked. "After I realised my mistake, I used to stay very upset, she was my colleague and we used to talk almost everyday. We got closer and one day out of the blue, she proposed me. I was confused but somewhere I thought that maybe I like her, so I accepted. As time passed, I came to know that I was doing wrong with her too, I never felt something for her, I always used to find Aaruhi in her. One day I told everything to her and I am glad that she understood", I said. "Maybe because she truly loves you Darshan", Shubh said and I looked towards him. "If you always loved Aaruhi, then that day, when she went to your home to talk to you, why did you act like that?", he disappointedly asked. "I don't know", I said and hung my head low in disappointment. "That day when I saw her again, the first thought that struck my mind was our last fight. I got mad again and ended up misbehaving. I wish I had not reacted like that", I said. I wondered that she was so strong in college then now, how can she let me break her so easily. "Don't worry Darshan, she also loves you and you know that right, just be good to her and don't talk to her about what all happened today. Try to make her feel good and happy. Well if you ask me. I think you should say her those three magical words", Shubh said, his voice was filled with excitement in the end. I looked towards him, his face was lit up by a bright ear to ear smile. A wide smile automatically appeared on my face and I swallowed him in a hug. "I hope you'll not say those three magical words to me, remember both of us are boys", he said and burst out into a laughter. I gently punched his back and said, "Shut up".