Into My Mind

Visions of A Love

The breeze was softly blowing the leaves around my feet. They crunched as I walked towards him, his back turned to me and his red hair like a beacon in the sun. As I neared him, I could feel his warmth and the beating pattern of his heart. His thoughts filled my mind and his soul latched on to mine. I felt his embracce engulf me and I sunk deeper into him.

Cold wind flushed my sweat covered skin. My heart was pounding as he flashed in my mind. I reached my hand out and felt the roughness of his beard between my fingers. I closed my eyes and his breath was on my lips. The mere scent of him sent my body afire and my mind in circles. He was my destiny, he was my future.

"My lady," someone said as they opened the door to my room.

Reality hit me and I was thrown back into real time. He quickly retreated and the cold outside entered my body. Bumps covered my arms and legs and I realized that I was no longer in my bed, but standing in the middle of the room. My clothes were gone and a deep red mark of fingers were on my wrist. As I traced them, a blanket was wrapped around me.

"You will catch a chill. Let's go back to bed," they said.

Their touch was soft, but unfamiliar. Their voice was soothing, but terrifying. I felt safe and scared at the same time, but I did as they said. As soon as my head hit the pillow I felt him there again. It was like he was stuck within my dreams, never to escape and come to life. There had to be a way to fix that. I needed to touch him, to feel his bare skin on mine.

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Another sleepless night with the wolves howling outside my window. I woke to the moon shining down on me and him at the foot of my bed. His bare body soaking in the moonlight from the full moon. As I stood, he turned as if he was really there. His arms reached out for mine and I dived into his being. I felt myself swim through the darkness until I reached his heart. I ripped mine out and sewed it onto his, giving myself to him forever.

My soul was thrown out and I felt cold. As my eyes opened, he was gone and so was the moon. The wolves no longer howled and darkness washed over the lands. I shivered in the blackness of my room and closed my eyes, hoping he'd come back to me. The sudden ringing of bells and the horn of someone approaching caused the moon and the life of the land to come back.

The compass inside me pulled me to the gates. I could sense him coming closer and closer to my fortress. I threw on a blanket and took off running. If it was truly him then I would feel it. My soul and heart would call out to him and he would answer it. No matter what he looked like, no matter who he was, and no matter his station I would love him.

His red hair bounced atop his head as he rode in on his steed. His blue eyes locked onto mine and I heard his name call out to me. Joshua. My inner being called out to his and we were as one. Men that surrounded him yielded as our lips met. My body left me and joined his. The cold no longer bothered me, all I felt was his warmth.

He pulled back from me, his beard tickled my cheeks and I felt my heart shudder at his touch. Electricity flowed through my veins as he ran his fingers over my cool skin. I was lost within his smile in his eyes. This is my soul mate, the one I have been dreaming about my whole life. Until now, I felt him so far away. I had reminded myself that he did not exist every waking hour, but when I shut my eyes I lied to myself.

No more did I need to wonder about his identity, or his realness. Here he was before me and all the words I had kept in my head escaped me.

"My love," he said.

His tender voice sent shivers down my spine and my head started to spin. Years had I yearned to hear his voice and the sound of it sent me into a trance. I closed my eyes and replayed his words over and over again, never wanting the sound to end.

A cold breeze hit my exposed legs and I came back to where I was. I opened my eyes once more and he was still before me. My mate, my love, my heart, and my soul was here with me. No longer did I have to close my eyes to see him. No more. He was here.