Smile

16

Delilah was right.

No matter how many times

I tried to ignore what she said,

Tried to be mad at her,

I couldn't.

Because what she said was true.

I hadn't thought about

Her

Throughout the months

We'd lived in Florida.

I'd only thought about me

And how my parents ignored me

And how nobody cared about me.

But what was going on with Delilah

While I was slowly going insane?

Because if I was that upset

And felt as if nobody cared about me,

Then how has Delilah felt?

Surely not rainbows and butterflies.

Because who am I kidding

When I think

That her friends and her boyfriend

Have filled the void?

Hell,

I still feel empty

And Mom and Dad are constantly

Hovering over me,

And telling me how much

They love me.

But now,

All I can think of

Is Delilah.

Stupid Delilah.

* * *

I still haven't talked

Since the incident.

Everyone keeps trying to make me

But I just can't force myself to.

I haven't smiled

In what feels like forever.

It probably has been forever.

The only person

That hasn't tried to make me do anything

Is Delilah.

And she's ignoring me,

So I guess that doesn't really count

Does it?

I've tried to talk to her

Multiple times.

But every time

I open my mouth

To say I'm sorry

Nothing comes out

And she turns away from me.

* * *

Shane takes me to church

Every Sunday.

It surprises me

A lot.

What I thought I knew

Is wrong entirely.

But I still can't bring myself

To believe that He exists.

Because I'm still a mess,

And Delilah hates me.

And anyways,

If He does exist,

Then why do I have no purpose in this world?

Because the only thing

I seem to bring

Is a burden to everyone.

And I know

That people care about me now,

But I can't stop my thoughts

Anymore than I can stop the world from spinning.

Maybe they'd be better off without me...

Delilah sure would.

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A/N

Sorry I've been MIA for so long! Writers block has been glued to this and Lost for a while. I guess it doesn't help that I've been making all these cool story ideas and have been neglecting to even look at this one... *looks away sheepishly*

Anyways, I have a major twist coming soon! I just thought of some good ideas, so hopefully this story will be having updates more frequently.

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