Love, Amelia

Choice Vs. Chance

Someone once said that's its choice, not chance that determines our destiny.
Did I screw up my destiny? Or was my fate suppose to sink?

But let me back up.
Waking up, I sigh in discomfort at the thought of having to get up. It's been 21 days since the whole Hunter and I situation.

I don't think Owen knows, because I'm sure if he did, he would hate both Hunter and I. I haven't even spoken to Hunter, and he hasn't even spoken to me. I hate myself because a small part of me really misses it.

I sit up and rush towards the bathroom. I bend down on my knees and throw up last nights dinner. The level of fatigue caught me off guard. All of a sudden I was throwing up multiple times a day for the past three days, and functioning as a human was really difficult.

"Honey, are you okay in there?." mom says through the door.
"Yeah, fine mom. Just feeling a bit off."
"Maybe you should sit this school day off."
"Yeah, maybe I should. Thanks mom."
"Okay, I have to go to work, let me know if you need anything throughout the day." She says.

Another wave of sickness hits me and next minute I'm head first in the toilet. As I calculate my last period and put of the pieces together, it all hits me.... could I really be pregnant??

I ran to he nearest drug store I could find and bought a pregnancy test.

I thought there was no way I was already pregnant - we literally had sex once, but then again, once is all it takes. So I kept the box of two test in my bag until there were some more signs. But curiosity got the best of me, so before everyone arrived home, I walked into the bathroom and took the test.

Positive.

I almost didn't believe it when I first saw the faint lines. It was that kind of moment that took me out of my body - the kind which I hovered over myself and just kind of watched, in awe, at what was happening down below.

"No, this can't be happening" I cry. Pregnant, at 16. I didn't have a job, I was still in school and so was Hunter and-
I cut myself off. Oh fuck. What was I going to tell Hunter? What if he hates me? What if he doesn't want the baby and wants me to get an abortion? What am I going to do.

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Next day

"Oh my god" I say, jumping when I see my brother appear beside my locker. He has that sort of pissed off over protective brother expression smeared across his face.

"Amelia, we need to talk, now!"
I shake my head

"Not right now, I have to go to class."

Owen copies my head shake in return, gripping my arm in order to pull me back. I hiss in pain, using all my strength to pull my arm back.
"Amelia, seriously. Come on."

"No, Owen. I've got class, I don't want to be late."

"Come on, you've broken the rules before."

"What's that suppose to mean?" I say in agitated but confused voice.

"This." He brings his screen up to my face, showing a picture of Hunter and I. In bed. Naked. What the hell?! Who in their right mind would take that??!

My eyes widen and I gulp.

"Why the hell would you even go there!?!" He's my best friend, we've known him for nearly 9 years."
He screams loudly, loud enough for everyone to turn their heads and stop what they're doing.

"Owen stop, you're making a scene" I whisper.

"How could you!?!."
I don't reply, wiping my tears with the sleeve to my sweater.

"You've got to be kidding me!" Owen says louder in a more fuming tone. "You've crossed a line! You know he's a player. You know he sleeps around with every girl. You're just another one to add to his collection."

"I had just caught Cody cheating on me, and I was drunk and angr-." I say, trying to hold back my tears.
Before I could finish my sentence, Owen cuts in.

"Did he force himself onto you!?!."

Before I could even reply Owen storms off towards Hunter.
"Hey dude, what's up?." Hunter smiles.
It was before I could reach up to them Owen smashes his fist into Hunters cheekbone.

"You fucked my sister! How could you!" He yells before storming off.