Buildings Burn, People Die, But Real Love Is Forever

Chapter 3 - Burn

I looked at her gently but remembered the WHOLE reason I had left for a walk the night I died
*flashback*
"Eric...I need to tell you something..alone"
she said pulling me gently to the side so only we could hear each other
"What?"
I asked with a small smile.I was so happy today was my wedding and Jess would be there too
"Look Eric...i have to say this so I have no regrets I..love you and I need you to know...Im not going to your wedding tonight"
She said looking at her feet.My smile had suddenly dropped
"What?!No Jess you have to..you love me?"
I asked in shock.I never knew she loved me,it felt good...really good to hear it from her
"Yes I do...but nothing you say or do is going to make me to come...seeing you married will be to painful.So this is goodbye...forever"
Jess said sadly.I didnt know why but my heart was breaking
~Do i love her too?~
I thought confused but I didnt have time to think she went to walk out but I stopped her
"You cant do this to me!You're my best friend!We've known eachother for 6 years Jess!I need you there"
I said seriously.I really needed her there. It felt like if I didnt have her consent then I couldnt go on with this wedding but she shook her head, the tears came.
"I cant do this!"
Jess yelled.I needed to sort out my feelings knowing that she loves me now made me so confused.I wanted to figure out what to do before she could leave me
"Look...I need to go for a walk to clear my head just stay here til I come back please?"
I begged
"Eric I"
"Please...its my last wish from you"
I said pleadingly,she sighed
"Fine..."
She said and walked away.I was so angry that I felt like I loved not only Shelly but Jess now too! I slammed the door on my way out I needed to think...my head swarmed with so many thoughts and questions
*end flashback*
I starred at Jess but then another one of her flashbacks were coming
*flashback*
Jess sat on the couch and cried
"Didnt go to well I see"
Shelly said Jessie only glared
"No...it didnt Shell... I love you to death and you know that but...seeing you two getting married will only hurt me and Im sorry"
Jess said crying
"I know hun,I know i just dont know how to tell Eric that...I fell out of love"
Shelly said and hugged her
"You did?!"Jess asked surprised
"Yes..I dont love him any more and I cant marry him I know he's going to be hurt but I cant be in a loveless relationship besides...you two belong together...I'm so sorry it has to end this way with Eric and I"
She said as tears fell. Jess had something to say but it was cut off by those bastards at the door *end flashback*
I was truely shocked.Shelly...fell out of love with me...when I honestly thought about it...I wasnt hurting to bad I actually didnt care...I looked down at Jess
"Oh Jess...wat have they done to you"
I said as tears fell on her beautiful face...wait.. did I just think that?...Yeah Jess was beautiful & I didnt care if I thought that
"I cant believe Shelly didnt love me anymore... still...Im going to get revenge on what they did to us Jess just wait"
I said kissing her forhead.She groaned
"Eric..."
She mumbled shifting in the bed.I walked out and sat at my desk and looked in the mirror...I was full of hate and agony.I looked at a picture of Jess and I on the couch.I had my arm around her neck in a playful headlock and she had her hand on my left cheek while sticking out her tongue to my right cheek almost touching it....that was before Shelly
*flashback*
"Eric!Ready or not here I come!"
Jess called.We were playing man-hunt in my room. The lights were off.Jess was looking for me....I was casually sitting on the couch in the dark as she walked around.I heard a stumble and then a loud thud on the floor
"Ow!Oh my god I think its broken!"
I heard Jess yell.I was scared and worried as I turned on the light and ran to her but only saw her sitting Indian style on the floor
"Howdy partner"
She said with a smug look
"I found you"
She said laughing
"No fair I was worried about you"
I said in defense
"Oh well!"
Jess said and got up and ran.I ran after her.We ran all throughout my apartment until she lied on the couch looking up at me while batting her eyelashes
"Hey sexy how often you come here?"
She asked and i laughed
"I come here alot...though strangely I've never seen you before...how is it possible a beautiful girl like yourself hasnt crossed my eyes yet?"
I had asked her
"Hm,I just dont know..."
She said and I laughed as I tickled her till she cried with laughter.I finally stopped and pulled out my camera
"Memory time!"
I said and put her in the headlock as she placed her hand on my left cheek sticking out her tongue to my right cheek and we snapped the pic laughing
*end flashback*
I sighed sadly then looked up seeing my depressed clown mask,touched it having a flashback come to me it was with Shelly
*Flashback*
I snook up to Shelly who was lying on the couch sleeping
"Boo"
I said and she woke up laughing.I fell on my ass laughing as well
*End flashback*
I opened my droor seeing pictures of Jess and Shelly...I had never seen this before...
*flashback*
"Jessica my secret love!"
Shelly said hopping on Jess' back
"Woah!"
Jess said falling on her ass.They both laughed until tears came
"Oh mi gosh Shelly!You're so crazy!"
Jess said holding her sides
"I cant help it you make me crazy!"
Shelly said laughing too but then Shelly stopped
"So be honest Jess...youre in love with Eric arent you?"
Shelly asked her.Jess quickly stopped laughing and looked Shelly dead in the eye
"Shelly...I-"
"Relax Im not gonna threaten you...I actually thinks its really sweet but if you were in love with him why didnt you take advantage of that before I came along?"
Shelly asked
"Well 'cause...Eric doesnt love me the way I do. besides when you did come around I tried to not like you but I just couldnt...you're to nice of a person...I REALLY want to be with Eric..but..
I'll be ok if he's with someone like you. You're...perfect"
Jessie said smiling sadly
"Im sorry hun...I truely am...I didnt mean to steal him from you you dont hate me do you"
Shelly asked and Jess looked shocked
"Shells!I could never hate you!I love you to death and I'd take my life for you...come on dont think like that.I'll find someone who will love me...and if not...theres always...suicide"
Jess said smiling looking down
"Shut the hell up"
Shelly said as she pulled out my camera
"Memory time!"
Shelly and Jess said making fun of me as they snapped a pic together.Jess and Shelly were hugging eachother with their cheeks touching.Both had cheesey smiles on.
*end flashback*
I pulled out a picture of Shelly and had yet another flashback
*flashback*
I was holding Shelly on the couch as she lied next to me cuddling
"I love you"
She said smiling
"Say that again"
I told her
"I love you"
She said laughing
*new flashback*
Jess and Shelly were trying to make some kind of food in the kitchen when I heard Jess
"Ok...maybe we put it up to high"
Jess said starring
"How can you be so calm?!"
Shelly panicked
"I dont know get some water!"
Jess said starting to panic.I ran over there laughing my ass off and put a lid on it and hugged my two favorite girls
"Take out"
We all said at the same time laughing
*yet another flashback*
I came into the living room,as Shelly sat on the couch reading, smiling with me shirt off and leaned on the arm of the chair starring at her.I noticed Jess get up randomly and walk to the door
"Hey Jess whats-"
"Im going out!I'll be back later...much later"
She said sounding pissed and slammed the door shut...I guess thinking back with the knowledge I have now...she mustve been depressed seeing Shelly and I like that...
*end flashback*
I pulled out Shelly's bride magazine and heard voices in my head...it was Sarah,Jess,and Shelly
"Wow you look great!"
Sarah said
"Nicely picked out Shelly"
Jess said with a hint of sadness in her voice
"Ta-da!"
Shelly said as I got to the flashback and it was her spinning around in her dress and flowers as Jess and Sarah sat on the bed
*new flashback*
I saw Jessie reading a book on my bed when Shelly and Sarah came in and started to have a pillow fight.Jess put her bookmark in the book and picked up a pillow playing along as they giggled and hit each other
*Next flashback*
I had a can of whip creme in my hand and Jess was sound asleep on the couch...she was sick and Shelly and I were taking care of her... seeing as her parents would never do that...I took the whip creme and MADE Shelly spray it on herself then we both snuck up to Jess and sprayed it on her she yelped and when she relized wat she did used her hands to wipe it off and throw it at me...it hit me in the mouth then she giggled and went back to sleep.
*end flashback*
I found Shelly's blue earings.....
*flashback*
Shelly and I were about to make love
*end flashback*
I dug deeper into my desk and found a chain bracelett saying
~Best~
on it...it was Jess'.I got a flashback with her while Shelly was away with a family issue
*Flashback*
I came home drunk as hell one night...now wen Im drunk...you cant tell.I can walk in a straight line,my words dont slur,Im prefectly fine... accept I ALWAYS want to get sexual when Im drunk...and who happened to be there that night?Jessof course...I saw her on my bed singing quietly as she strummed my guitar
"You say that love is forever,your forever is all that I need.Please stay as long as you need.I cant promise the we wont be broken but I promise that I'll never leave please stay forever with me-"
"Jess..."
I said interupting her.She looked up and already saw me in my boxers
"Woah there cowboy...what'chya doing?"
She asked putting down the guitar in its stand gently
"I want you Jessie...I want to take you so bad"
I said but she looked confused
"You're with Shelly"
She said trying to defend herself
"But I want you Jess please...please let me have you"
I begged
"Are you drunk?"
She asked
"No baby Im not.I just really want you please... let me"
I begged looking into her eyes while I crawled ontop of her
"Well........alright"
She said and I began to kiss her passionatly.I began to take her clothes off...and you know the rest...the next morning I looked down at her and relized I had taken advantage of her...I had taken her virginity and it meant nothing... that was probablly special to her and I took it...I felt like shit...because the next hour I had to tell her it meant nothing...she hadnt spoken to me for atleast 3 months...until I wrote her a song in love and apology...she forgave me but said NEVER to get drunk again or she'd snap my balls off...of course I agreed...
*end flashback*
I shook back in forth in anger and pain...I was going to get revenge...I punched the mirror hard, cutting my hand then I knocked off half of the candles I had on the desk...hopefully it didnt wake Jess...nah...she's a heavy sleeper if she's really tired...by the looks of it she was....I pulled out white makeup and looked at my mask then covered my entire face in white.I took out Jess' black lipstick and covered my eyebrows,lips,and eyes in it.I made my face look almost just like the mask.Once that was done my crow cawed and I looked and saw it standing on my wardrobe.I opened it and pulled out a suit case.I pulled on a black skin tight shirt,black tight jeans,and then walked to Gabriel and pet him a bit.I walked to my front window as it thundered,lit up the sky,and rained.
Now...I had to go to start my revenge.I soon left after that....