13 reasons why [completed]

chapter 1;

it was a normal day. like every other. i was casually walking to school, quietly singing my favorite song atm. as i reach the school building and walk in, i feel so many eyes on me. i try to ignore it but it's hard. i sigh and go to class. math. our teacher is always grumpy and mad, tbh it's annoying. today we are doing some geometry. i hate it but whatever. i was sitting alone. that rarely happens, since my friends would usually sit with me but today they are sitting other side of class, looking at me weirdly and constantly whispering something. i sigh, trying to ignore it. but i can't. after an hour, the bell rang and we could go to our next class. physics. why do we have all the worst classes today. i put my bag down and go to my friends, who seem to ignore me. perfect. i'm just wondering what did i do wrong. i try to talk to them but they just keep ignoring me. i pull alex (my best friend) to other side of class and ask: 'why are you ignoring me all the time?'. 'we know what you did' he answered shortly, trying to get away. 'what do you mean?' i asked confused. 'we know that you raped that girl, martinus told us' he said. wait what? i raped a girl? i hate this asshole aka my brother. i walk away and sit on my place, blankly staring at my notbook. i didn't have power to fight and try to convince them now. the teacher came in and everyone stayed quiet. i was, the whole time, stuck in my own thoughts. after class, at lunch break, everyone avoided me. i was sitting alone in the corner, hoping that anyone would come to me. but no one didn't. i wasn't hungry at all. i just stared at ground, hearing everyone's laugh. even that weird guy, who no one likes, had someone next to him. every girl or boy had his/her group of friends with them. and there was me, awkwardly sitting alone. anyways, i was alone the whole day. i didn't even dare to come to martinus and ask him why he said those lies. after school, i was slowly walking home, keeping my head down. i was kicking rocks, trying to figure out how to stop them from believing martinus. i decided to go to a park where we used to play when we were little. this place has so many old memories. i sit on a bench, staring at little lake. it was there when we were little too. it makes me calm. i was sitting there for hours, just thinking about life, how it's hard and sometimes it's more like hell. i saw that mom sent me a message to come home. i stood up and slowly walked to my house. when i entered the house, i immediately saw my parents, looking really mad and, who would know, martinus sitting behind them with an innocent smile. when i came to them, they started yelling. my brother told them too that i raped a girl and now, even my own parents don't believe me. i couldn't fight for myself. i knew that they won't believe me, obviously they believe their little 'angel'. i was whole time keeping my head down, tears rolling down my cheeks. i couldn't stand them anymore, i just ran in my room and locked the door. i laid on my bed, hugging the pillow silently crying.
the first reason: martinus