13 reasons why [completed]

chapter 5;

life's going good these days actually. no just kidding, of course it's not. but i am going to school now. i heard there is a new girl, Liz i think. they said she's pretty shy and doesn't talk to anyone. well, we can maybe be friends. if she will like me, but the chances are small. anyways, i finally reached the school building. laughing, yelling, talking... i wish i could be part of that. i ignore the bullies and walk to my first class. biology, duh. i sit at my place, patiently waiting for the teacher. as i was staring at my notebook, i felt someone next to me. i looked up and saw a girl. she's beautiful tho, i think that's Liz since i didn't saw her before. "hey, can i sit next to you?" she asked with her sweet voice. i nodded and she smiled and sat next to me. "i haven't seen you since i came here" she said, breaking the awkward silence. "yeah... i wasn't at school these days" i answered. "oh...why?" she said. ugh she's kinda annoying. "i just haven't felt good these days" i said, trying not to show any emotions. i don't want others to know how i feel. i deserve to suffer alone. she only nodded as the teacher walked in.
- after the class -
okay that was probably the most boring class ever. at least i talked to Liz little. she isn't actually that annoying, just curious. the plan that we become friends worked, what a surprise. now... geography. that sucks but anyways, i guess i will again sit with Liz. we walked to it together, talking about random things. it feels good to have someone to talk to, after a long time being alone.
now the class. ugh. now we have to do projects. we could pick one partner. i'm with Liz, great. we have to do it about russia. cool country. we will be working at my house, hope martinus won't interrupt us.
- 2 weeks later -
me and Liz are actual good friends now. well, i just hope one day it will be more than it. yes, i like her. she made me feel like a person again, like my depression was gone. she made me smile for real. i thought no one would be able to do that. i thought i would not be able to do that, but i did.
but today, i decided that i will tell her how i feel. i'm just scared that she won't feel the same and that our friendship will be ruined. but whatever, then i'll just end all this. i called her and we will meet at part in 10 minutes. i fast got ready and walked there, finding her already waiting. we hugged and sat on a bench. i started talking about my feeling for her. she was smiling, with a little glow in her eyes. "i like you too" she said. i smiled as she put her hands on my cheeks, making a deep eye contact. i leaned in and it happened, we kissed. i pulled away, in gasp for air. "Liz... this was just... amazing" i said. "i loved it too" she said, having that beautiful cute smile on her face. "will you be my girlfriend?" i said shy. "of course little baby" she said teasingly. she is 1 day older and she loves to call me like that. "but i have to go now, i'm sorry" she added and stood up. i stood up too and hugged her tight, leaving q kiss on her head. she waved and walked away.
- next day, at school lunch -
weird that i haven't seen Liz today at all. i thought maybe she's sick or something, so i didn't worry about it a lot. i sat on a place we usually sit, but something caught my eye. it was her, but there was also martinus. he had his hands on her waist. their faves were too close. suddenly, they kissed. i felt like a knife just stabbed through my chest. tears were forming in my eyes. my whole world fell apart. she came to me and said:
"i'm sorry marcus, but martinus is much better".
fifth reason: Liz.