"No, that's exactly what we're going to do "I told him.
"Hannah was her fucking sister, Justin!She has a right to know!"Alex said raising his voice in frustration.
"Maybe Justin's right, Alex?You've seen Violet, she's not stable enough to handle this right now"Zach said.
"Whatever, fine"Alex said before walking away from us.
When Hannah died two weeks ago I got a box sent to me at my doorstep.It was full of cassette tapes.All with different reasons of why she killed herself.And lm one of them.
Violet hasn't been going to school and has been isolating herself from everyone.She doesn't even want to see me.
I'm afraid that if she listens to the tapes it'll ruin her more than she already is.And I know that for a fact it'll break us up.I mean Hannah did expose me for cheating after all.
I've been abusing drugs and drinking a lot lately to forget everything.Ive been saying at Bryce's and skipping school.I guess I just don't want to face the truth that Hannah Baker is actually dead and it's my fault.
Violet's P.O.V
I was laying in bed crying, as per usual.Its what I've been doing that past two weeks.Ive hardly gotten out of bed.Only to shower or go to the bathroom.
I've never experienced depression, but I'm pretty sure this it was it feels like.I feel sad, and empty.Ive been isolating myself from everyone because I just don't want to deal with it all.
I haven't seen Justin in what feels like forever.But I don't really have any desire to actually see him.I don't have the desire to see anyone, but Hannah.
My mom is a complete wreck.She's trying to do everything she can to figure out why Hannah did what she did and she's driving herself mad.
People have been stoping by so much bringing flowers and food that just die or don't get ate, that now we just don't even bother answering the door.
Tony has been around a lot.Talking with my parents while I stay cooped up in my room.
People have stopped trying to text or call me.I think they've pretty much come to conclusion that I'm not going to answer.
My moms making me go to school tomorrow for the first time since Hannah's death.Apparently I've missed too much school and if I miss anymore I'm going to get held back.
I'm not ready to go back.I don't want to see any of my friends or teachers.I don't want to hear how sorry they are or other people who never talked to Hannah say how much they miss her.
I then heard a knock on my door and groaned.
"Who is it?"I asked while wiping my tears away.
"Your amazing boyfriend who misses you so much and would really like if you'd unlock your door and let me in"I heard Justin's voice say from the other side of the door.
I laid there for a good 10 seconds debating on rather I should let him in or not before giving in and getting up and opening up the door.
But then as soon as I saw him I burst out in tears and he embraced me in his arms.
You know how you have that one person who you're most vulnerable to?And when your upset and trying to not cry, but when you see them you just can't help it?Yeah, well Justin was that person.
"Shhh, shhh"He said while rubbing my back.
"Why am I crying?I am so sick of crying"I said as soon as I pulled away from the hug.
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"I know, baby"He said walking towards me and gently grabbing my face and wiping my tears away.
"I've missed you so much"He told me.
"I've missed you too"I said quietly.
"How are you feeling?"He asked and I bitterly laughed.
"Oh, you know, I'm fine...except for the constant anxiety and loneliness that haunts me everyday"I said and he frowned.
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"I'm so sorry this happened, Vi"Justin said genuine.
"Me too"I said before walking back over to my bed and laying down.
"Is there anything I can do?"He asked and I shook my head.
"No.But you can stay with me?"I said and he nodded.
"Okay"He smiles before coming over to my bed and laying down with me.
"Have you been drinking?"I asked smelling alcohol on his breath.
"Just a little"He said and I nodded.
"How'd you get here?"I said knowing he doesn't have a car.
"Bryce"He said.
"I feel like it's my fault, Justin"I said referring to Hannah's death.
"Hey, don't say that"He said and I sighed.
"She was mad at me before she died.And I was being such a bitch to her, Justin"I said getting sad at the thought.
"You didn't do this, Vi"Justin said.
"I just don't understand why.I never thought Hannah was capable of doing something like this"I told him.
"None of us did"
"I just wish I knew why"I said.
But little did I know what was in store for me.That shortly I'd find out what drove Hannah to kill herself.Why she did what she did.
