Unconditionally Broken

Chapter 9

"Is she okay?" I asked before she could respond.

"Are her parents in the way Matt?"

"Yes they should be here any minute now. Is Alyssa okay?"

Worried.

"I want to tell you and her parents at the same time."

Why?

Did something happen?

Did I loose her?

I can't loose her.

I couldn't have lost her.

I couldn't have.

Alyssa's parents rushed into the room.

"Is she okay? How hurt is she? What happened? How bad is it?" Her mom said worried already crying a little bit.

"Can we please see her?" Her dad asked.

Taylor ran in.

Taylor. Taylor actually came. I know they are best friends and all but how does he know. This surprises me. It shouldn't surprise me.

Wait. Taylor was crying. Wow. He is a good friend. Alyssa never stops talking about how good of a friend he was to her. But I thought she was exaggerating a little. I guess not. I started to become jealous. Why? They're just friends. I can get over it.

"H-hey dude. Sorry a-about this. I know it's hard. For m-e too."

"I know. Hey dude don't cry. I've never seen you cry. You never cry. Now isn't the time. You are going to make me cry. Trust me I'm trying not to. I was crying my eyes out earlier. She still has a chance Taylor. This might not be it. I'm really sorry about this. It's all my fault."

"Look dude," he said whipping away his tears and getting together, "I don't know what happened, but I can bet you a million bucks that it wasn't your fault. And listen. If this is it you don't want her to leave with you thinking it was all your fault. She wouldn't want that."

A tear came down my cheek. I was crying now.

"But it was my fault."

"What happened Matt?"

"Kelsey wants me back and she got revenge and hurt her. Then I don't really know what happened after that but she left my house and I thought I messed up and I was going over there to apolajize for whatever didn't feel right and there was a guy that looked so familiar but I don't know who it was and he stabbed her and I know led him out and I was too late Taylor. I was too late. If I would have came a little bit earlier this wouldn't have happened."

"Well it looks like it's your fault." he joked.

I laughed. Why did I laugh at that. I shouldn't be laughing at this time. I guess he was trying to cheer me up. He's a good friend for that.

"Dude it's not your fault. It's Kelsey's and whoever that guy was. What did he look like?"

"He-"

I was distracted by the nurse coming in.

"What's going on?" Alyssa's dad asked.

"She is not in a coma. She is still unconscious. She should wake up in about 3 days. If all goes well."

"If all goes well. What to you mean if all goes well?" Taylor asked.

"We are going to be constantly running test. Checking everything. Doing surgeries. And there is still a chance that she won't make it, but that is unlikely."

I left the room.

Frustrated..

Death.

No.

She won't die.

I went on the balcony they have by the exit.

I slammed my fist into the wall.

Why did I do that?

Frustration.

To much frustration.

I can't deal with this anymore.

I was practically crying my eyes out.

.

This isn't real. This isn't real. This isn't real. This isn't real. This isn't real. This isn't real.

This isn't real.

It's not real.

Taylor walked out.

"Stop Matt. Just stop your killing me."

I didn't answer I just kept hitting the wall crying till my heart exploded.

"Stop!" he cried.

"Your suppose to be helping me not making it worse!" He yelled.

"Your supposed to be helping me Taylor. It's hard for me too!" I hit the wall again and grabbed the railing.

"I know it's hard for you. I just thought you would be the strong one."

"Seriously. You think I'm the strong one."

"Sometimes."

"Your always the strong one that helps me through things I'm always the one crying. Your the strong one. Not me."

"No dude I'm jealous of you all the time."

"Why?"

"Because you always help me through things. I try to hide my feelings. Crying doesn't affect anything. Strong people cry too Matt. I'm not the one that can get through this. I know you can. Sure I have doubts I actually thought you were gonna through yourself off of the balcony. but your better than that. I can get through this Matt. If I was in your shoes I would be handling it a lot worse. I think."

"No taylor. You can get through this. I can't. I can't just loose her. I can't loose her. Not now not ever."

"You won't loose her."

"How do you know that?" My watery eyes met his and I gave him a look of confusion and anger.

"Because if I can get through this you can too."

"Thanks but I don't really know."

"Yes you do Matt. Yes you do."

He left.

I can get through this.

Taylor came back.

"One more thing. Remember when I said your the strong one?"

"Yeah."

"I was wrong. I'm the strong one."

He laughed.

I laughed too.

"I know you are. You sure are good at cheering people up."

"I know. Come on let's go."

We walked out.