Love and Chase

Kabanata 12

"Whoa! Chill with that drink An."

Reena is now shock as ever. If ako naman talaga sa posisyon niya, seeing me drowning, no almost drowning myself sa beer, masa-shock talaga ako no. I'm known na Kj tapos ito ako ngayun nakakailang beer na.

"What the hell Antonette?" sumingit din si Nissa.

I smiled."Ok lang ako, I can handle naman and I'll stop when I think I've had enough."

Yes, I still can recognize them.

"I'm fine really. Stop with the stare guys."

Nissa and Reena eyed each other then both shrugged their shoulders.

"Ok. Just don't overdo it. Ayokong malintikan ni Tita no!" Nissa was reffering to my mom.

"Ok!" and I gave her an Ok sign."Teka cr lang ako."

I took my pace towards the cr. One thing that I realized while drinking beer, you can pee countless times. It's like umaapaw ang urine ko and I can't control it.

Before i stormed out of the cr I fix myself and look at myself. I see red spots. And my face is like burning. Ang pula ko. What the. This means no to beers again. Ugh.

Pagbukas ko ng door ng CR ay siya namang paglabas ni Chase sa men's cr. What the hell, right?

I smiled at him, I wouldn't let him know na galit ako because di niya ako sinipot. No. He will only think na affected ako, I will not cloud his mind, I'll let him think that I am just fine. Fine even he did not show up.

"Oh hi, Chase!" award me please. I did manage to look naturally ok.

Sinabayan niya ang lakad ko pabalik sa kumpulan ng tao.

"What are you doing here? It's late." 2 sentence. Improving convo but I don't have the mood to feel happy about it.

Bakit, siya lang ba may karapatang gumala ng ganitong oras. Neknek niya.

"Bakit ba? Nandito ka rin kaya. Oa mo ha." I laughed as much as possible. Bwesit ang hirap tumawa ng fake ha.

"You should go home. It's late and I thought you don't push yourself into this kind of place?"

"Bakit bawal ba mag-iba ng isip?" I sat in our group couch.

Chase is in front of me. He just nodded at my classmates, our classmates I mean, and turned again to face me.

I handed the beer and drink it.

"I did not know you're drinking."

"And when did you know something about me? Wala ka namang pakialam, diba?" there. I blurted it out. Me and my big mouth.

"What? Are you angry?" he asked.

E gago pala to e. Insensitive talaga nitong lalaking to. Bwesit ha.

"No, I'm not angry." bwesit.

"You sounded like one. In rage because I did not go to the party?"

"No Chase, hindi yun ganun. Okay fine, galit ako. Galit ako kasi hindi ka man lang nagsabi na hindi ka sisipot. Ano ba naman yung isang text lang. Hindi naman siguro yun makakabawas sa yaman mo. Piso lang naman yun, hindi ka naman siguro poorita para sabihing wala kang load. Bwesit!" It must be the beer. Ghad. Wala na, nasabi ko na.

He opened his mouth maybe to say something but close it again. Ha! Tama ako diba wala kang masabi ngayun kasi tama ako.

"Look Antonette, I'm sorry okay. But I don't need to explain myself."

Hang in there Joe. What did I just heard? He don't need to explain himself?

Relax Antonette.

"Ah okay." I shooed him away.

He tried to talk to me but I act as if I'm not interested. Haaaa. Don't need to explain pala e. Edi wag. Bwesit naman.

The clock said it's 3am so I decided na umuwi na dahil gigil ako sa pagmumukha ni Chase. And good thing na gusto na din umuwi ng mga classmates ko.

I bid goodbye to Nissa and thanked her for giving me a ride.

When I reached my bed, I was once again annoyed sa nangyari kanina. What the effing hell. That jerk just messed up with my head. Parang na double ang sakit sa dibdib ko, di pa nga ako sinipot, ayaw pang mag explain. Walang consideration. Ano akala niya sa aakin? Manika? Walang feelings ganun? E may feelings nga ako sa kanya, nasa starting line pa nga durog na durog na. Paano pa kaya kung pagpapatuloy ko pa. My ghad. Kawawa ang puso ko sa kanya. Huhu.

I rolled in my bed still feeling hurt. Damn this feeling, crush pa lang ganito na. I cannot imagine myself being like this. Dahil sa isang lalaki. Just what the hell is wrong with myself. Compose yourself, Antonette. You're so much better than this.

Since I can't sleep, I browse my facebook and decide to upload some Gradball pictures. Looking at my face in the pictures, I can tell and anyone who will see these pics can tell how bored I was. To hell with it, but whatever.

Then this Chase Travis Martinez liked my album. So he is online.

Alam mo yung feeling na kating-kati kang i-chat siya and pagmumurahin siya? Buti ang haba ng self-control ko. Di ko nalang ginawa kahit isang kalabit nalang babarilin ko na ng mura to. I blew in frustration. Maaga na nga akong lumandi, palpak pa ang lalaking gusto kong landiin. What a term. Landi.

Travis Martinez:
U home?

Aba't kapal ng mukhang mag chat nito sa akin. Seenzoned ko nga to bwesit!

Travis Martinez:
I hope u r. Yeah, seenzoned

Anak ka ng nanay mo Chase, leche! Galit parin ako kahit ikaw ang naunang mag-chat ngayon. Grrr.

"Anne Elis: If you feel GWAPO, you must be not feeling well.. "

And that was my facebook status.

Bahala na kung anong masabi nila diyan, I just feel like posting it.