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I nodded already knowing that shes always felt that way. My mother always asked God why he gave her a son she'd never love.

"Its okay mom, the important thing is that your alive fuck love I don't believe in love."

"Boy don't you cuss! I am your mother have some respect!" She says.

I roll my eyes.
How does she expect me to have respect for her but she don't respect me? Isn't respect supposed to go both ways?

"Alright, well I hope you get better mom I'll come visit you tomorrow." I say as I get up from the chair and walk towards the door.

"Don't bother! I don't want to see you." She says rolling her eyes.

I walked out the door and tears rolled down my eyes. I hated Leah for this but they were going to find out regardless.

Tomorrow I was gonna attempt to go see my dad. I wanted to prove to them that even though I'm attracted to the same sex I'm still the same stokeley.

I wiped my tears and continued to walk outside. The hospital was somewhat far but not that far from my sisters house. I was debating on either walking or calling an uber. After a couple minutes of debating I paid for an uber. As I'm waiting I see my sister and Jah I was confused as to what was going on since my sister was crying. I walked towards them and instantly hugged my sister not caring that Jahseh was there.

"What's wrong sis?" I ask very concerned.

"Mom passed away stokeley."

My mother never cared for me hell she probably never loved me but I did love her. Tears rolled down my eyes and I was close to having an anxiety attack.

but I needed to stay strong for Cynthia  all three of us walked towards the car. when we got to the car I waited for Cynthia to get in the car so I can talk to Jahseh in private.

"I appreciate you being here for my sister Jahseh but when I said that I wanted you to stay away from me I meant it! And since shes my sister that includes her too." I say with a serious look on my face.

"Stokeley as fucked up as I was for fucking with your feelings I just- I can't stay away from you." He said looking at me with sadness on his face.

"Well you have no choice but to! you have Travis and thats disrespect towards him."

"Fuck Travis!! Why does everyone keep talking about his annoying ass? Look stokeley I don't want him! I want you." He says trying to grab by hand but I don't let him.

"I'm going through enough bullshit right now as it is Jahseh, 99.9 percent of my family hates me just for being gay! My mother passed away!! after you drop us off I want you to leave me alone." I say turning around and getting into the car.

"You okay stoke?" My sister asked.

I nodded.

"Yeah I'm good."

I lied I wasn't good in fact I was broken inside. I hated the fact that all this was happening but Karma is a bitch and Leah will get hers.

Jahseh got in the car and the whole car ride home it was quiet. He seemed upset why though? Oh right cause I wasn't bouta let him fuck with my head or my emotions again.

after all the traffic that we went through to get to the house we finally made it. I got out the car and seen Andrea and some girl talking on the porch I didn't recognize her at first that was until I made it to the porch and she tackled me to the ground. 

"Stokeley!!! " 

I hugged her with a smile on my face. 

"How are you?" I ask. 

we pulled back from the hug. 

"Well I'm okay but I'm more concerned bout you and Cynthia." 

"talking about Cynthia where is she?" Andrea asked.

"She's still in the car I guess talking to Jahseh." 

"Ohh okay." Andrea said as she left us and walked towards the car. 

"Yeah my mom passed." I said sitting down on the porch sighing. 

"I'm sorry for your loss! your mom was a-"

I cut her off I didn't want to be rude I mean yes I was hurt that I lost my mom but she put me through hell. 

"Trust me she wasn't that much of a good woman as she put herself out to be." I say looking at her. 

"What happened?" she asked sitting next to me. 

"Its a long story." sparking up a cigarette. 

"aii well I'm all ears whats up? I gotta beat someones ass?" she asked with a serious face. 

"Kinda, I don't know maybe." I say not really wanting to speak about Leah. 

"Whats her name? where she live? I will handle that bitch right now but I wanna know why she deserves to get her ass beat." she says. 

"Okay well I'm Gay and-" 

I choked on my own words only cause I didn't want to be judged. 

"Its okay stoke, I'm gay as fuck too! I'm not going to judge you." she says putting her hand on mine. "What happened?" 

"So basically I got tired of the way my parents were treating me, always forcing me to go to church and shit I mean I don't mind I actually liked going to church but I mean damn 4 times a week? and well there was this girl that my parents swore up and down that I liked when I aint attracted to women I was supposed to go to a wedding and shit just went down hill from there." I say trying not trying to say everything Ayleks was crazy she will hurt this girl and happily go to jail right after.

"Aii now what else cause I know there's more." she says looking at me. 

"She disrespected Cynthia so I told her friend to pull over I was gonna walk home but I ended up being stopped by him." I pointed at jahseh not giving a fuck if he knew I was talking about him or not. "He played with my emotions and fucked with my head then that shorty that I was gonna go to the wedding with told my parents I was gay , my parents found me here at Cynthias house and my dad beat me the fuck up he coulda killed me but andrea smashed something over his head."  I say knowing now that wherever Leah was she better beg the good lord to have mercy on her soul cause my cousin was gonna do more than beat her ass.

she nodded.

she got up and walked towards Jahseh. 

"Aye you!!" 

"Me?" Jah asked. 

"No the ghost behind you, yes you! the next time you think of fucking with stokes feelings the broom stick in the kitchen will be put up your ass got it?" she glared at him. 

Jahs eyes went wide. 

he nodded. 

she walked back towards me. 

"I only threatened him but if he tries anything else I will beat his ass ...as for that shorty whats her name?" 

"Leah." 

"Woah! witch Leah? Leah as in preacher Jaccobs daughter?" 

I nodded. 

"That bitch used to make fun of me in school, I'm gonna enjoy fucking her up."