Why Do You Hurt Me? (BTSJungkook X Reader)

Giving Up

"Y/n I really don't know what to do anymore. Lately you've been the talk of the school."  Hoseok stated before leaving my house

Hoseok was really concern for me not only was I placed as a bully which I'm not. But also people been spreading rumors that I'm in love with all of Jungkooks friends so that's why I'm bashing IU.

I really don't know where to start, something I didn't want to tell the guys yet especially Jungkook but I found out a close friend of IU figured out my twitter password and helped IU frame me..
Also her friends that are females been spreading rumors as with the plan to make me look like a lonely needy bitch.

The saddest part is I have recording of IU constantly telling me I'm not worth it and Jungkook is only hers.. to prove that it was all her, but something just makes me feel like I shouldn't say anything and hope I can fix this by staying away from everyone.
Hoseok tried to be by my side but I can tell it's hurting him in both ends. One because people will start to talk and two he can't find a way to help me but just be my moral support.

"Y/n are you okay?"
"Yeah im fine why you asked?" Eomma took a step closer to me
"Well first, you flipped all the mirrors in your room and also you haven't had a smile on your face lately. What's wrong is Jungkook giving you a hard time again?"

"Eomma-ah don't worry about me look (*faked smiled*) you see I'm smiling. It's nothing imma go take a walk. Don't worry I'm taking my pepper spray.
perhaps I'll go to Seoul shopping center."

Time skip

Its been a while sense I walked on my own well sense the day Jungkook saved me from those ass wholes. None of the guys have been speaking to me ever sense IU came in the picture and turned them against me.. the thing that sucks is she's constantly sending me messages saying I'm not worth it and I'm a ugly girl who will remain alone forever. I'm usually a strong girl but for some reason her words hurt more than Jungkook ever had.

Decided to get a movie ticket and watch a romance movie that just came out. I sat in the row in the very top to avoid from people noticing i came alone. Munched on my popcorn as the movie started. The movie was basically about two forbidden lovers with reveal families.
In the most intense moment from a distance I see a younger girl that looked a whole lot like IU. She had the long wavy dark hair and from the side I could tell she had a pale skin.
*slowly lowered two seats down to get near*

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Y/n pov
*girl slightly turned kissing a very handsome male*
No way is that IU?
What is she doing here with that guy and not Jungkook?
Did they just kiss.. what about Jungkook she's his first girlfriend this will break his heart if he finds out she's cheating?
Do I stop this fuck? *slowly takes a picture of them*
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I didn't even feel comfortable having such evidence that will hurt Jungkook. He may be an ass to me but in reality I care about him and at some point we were friends. What would Hoseok do if he was in this situation. I must meet Hoseok and ask for help he's the only one that believes me..

*calling Hoseok*

Hoseok: Hello?

Y/n: hey Hobi Can you meet me at the cafe near the theaters ASAP!?

Hoseok: wait what? What's wrong are you okay?

Y/n: im fine but this is about Jungkook

Hoseok: y/n please don't hurt yourself more with this mess Jungkook will eventually come around.

Y/n: no it's not about me it's about Jungkook and IU. Please come!

Hoseok: fine be there in 10!

*Hoseok ends the call*

Finally Hoseok arrived and right away I pulled him to sit next to me in a booth.

"Y/n whats wrong? Why do you look so tired and pale? Have you been sleeping well?"

"That doesn't matter look at this" showing him the picture I took of IU and a guy

"Woah! That's IU with Mark from our school! Why is his arm around her and she's leaning on his shoulder?" Smacked Hoseok head

"Don't you get it! She's cheating on Jungkook dummy.."
*hoseok shook his head and sigh*

"Damn this is big.. but you know it really won't hurt Jungkook."
Confused as fuck and stared at the picture

"What do mean? Isn't she Jungkook's first love?"

"Ahhh, i didn't want to tell you this because I wanted Jungkook to finally man up and speak up but nope that didn't happen things just got worse for him. Y/n your his first love dummy and you two don't get it. The boys and I figured it out. He's mean to you because he doesn't know how to express himself. He thought if he got a girlfriend he'll forget his feelings for you but nope. Ever sense Namjoon told you not to come around your all he ever talks about. Even if it's just to talk shit but he always brings you up. Jungkook loves you but he won't man up instead he treats you like shit."

My heart started raising not wanting to believe what Hoseok just told me..

"Say what! But he hurt me why does he do that? I've done nothing to him yet he keeps pushing me away. You know IU use to tell me such hurtful things like I'm not worth it or right for Jungkook and so I even started believing it and that's why I haven't been sleeping well and keeping myself away from you guys. I've been hurting Hoseok with her words."

*hoseok hugged me tight and then smiled wide*

"Y/n your tough and sometimes stubborn but you have a big heart. You put yourself last from everyone else. Don't ever believe your not worth fighting for. If I didn't think you are a good friend I wouldn't be on your side from my own childhood friends. Just be honest with Jungkook he's just a big brat kid who wants to be loved."

Everything Hoseok said to me wasn't processing through my head. Who knew that Jungkook who've been mean to me this whole time actually love me.. that explains the times he showed me aggressive affection. But I can't force him to anything when Jungkook is ready to share how he feels I'll be there to listen.

Eventually Hoseok walk me home and the whole walk there I was quiet thinking to myself why does he hurt me so much if he cares about me.. I get he can't express himself but he should at least try.

A/n: sorry if I'm boring you I really am trying each chapter takes me a cool minute to write because if I'm honest, with this one I get lots of writers block and I really don't know why.. thnx for supporting me either way. See you