Why Do You Hurt Me? (BTSJungkook X Reader)

You and I

I use to think Jungkook was full of hate and devilish thoughts. Never in a millions years I thought I would get my first kiss by him yet so unexpected. Watching him look at me with those doe eyes never failed to make my heart beat raise. I'm lost in the way he looks at me as if he's sorry and I'm the only one in the world he wants.

"Silly girl come let's go inside! There going to start talking!"  Still shock by the moment Jungkook dragged me inside.
The guys right away stop there conversations and all eyes on us. I sat back down on my seat and so did Jungkook yet they all looked back and force suspicious. Finally Jimin leaned closer raising a brow with a smirk.

"You guys kissed huh!"  My cheeks rose
"Shut your mouth!" Jungkook demanded
"Ahah! I knew it! I always know when a couple kisses because one there face expression and two y/n is blushing.."
right away I smack Jimin's shoulder without thinking straight.

"Yah! It's non of your business!"
Soon after they all started laughing and cheering for us but Jungkook and I stayed silent I think he's just as confused to the kiss as I was..

**next day**

"Hey listen! You don't just get to steal my first kiss and not say why! *jungkook ignoring me while walking to class* yah come back!"

Eventually he stopped once we got attention from a few students passing by.

"So that was your first kiss?"
"No shit! I'm not that one kind of girl that kisses anyone.. I was saving my first kiss for my first real boyfriend. Now look what you have done we are not even dating what a shame."

Jungkook got closer to me leaning forward and causing me to scoot a few steps back.
"Look, there's a lot I need to tell you and I'm sorry I didn't respect you especially lately but can you meet me after school by the gate?"

Jungkook was actually talking to me politely and not giving me his devil stare. Somethings up and I refuse to fall for it again and again.

"Well if I don't show up don't ask why! I have my reasons now bye!"
"You little!"
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Jungkook pov
Your such a dumbass!
Hyung's said many times a way to win a girl is by warming her heart not making her angry!
What if that's the only thing you know how to do to show affection? Why is it so hard loving her?!
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**time skip after school**

"okay I'm here now what do you want?"

"look, I'm trying to be good to you so don't start fussing okay! now come along let me treat you some ice cream the least I could do for yesterday.." 

we awkwardly walked to the ice cream shop by our school. finally when arrived I placed my backpack down and watched us Jungkook ordered.

Like things couldn't get any better we just sat there staring at our ice screams while people came in and out. Finally after a few sighs I took up the courage to question Jungkook.
"What happened with you and IU?"
"Nothing I broke up with her, she tried to act the victim but Yoongi shut her up with all the prove."

*deep sigh*

"Damn who knew Ms perfect was a bitch all along.. a.m. I right haha!"
"Heh, I like how you laugh.. you make everything around you perfect."
Suddenly stopped my laugh attack and turned red, one thing for sure is a compliment has never came out of his mouth especially if it had to do with me..

"Jungkook?"
"Mmmm?"

"Why did we kiss?"
Slowly he let down his spoon and looked at me in the eyes with a small smile.

"I didn't know how to stop you from leaving and my feelings took control."
"Feelings? What are you trying to say?"

"Look! I really don't understand myself lately, your all I ever think about so j-us-t let me be okay. You being so pretty and caring about my friends really gives me a hard time to deal with what I feel."

Took one more sigh and looked around as he dig his face into the ice cream and I'm pretty sure to hide his embarrassment.
"What ever it is your not telling yourself is just going to keep building up until you explode. Hey Jungkook can we go to the beach?"

We road rental bikes to the beach and of course we raced our way there. Tongues sticking out and my hair flying freely with the win I won't the first race.
Quickly dusted sand away from the bench on the sand soon Jungkook sat right next to me..

"My Eomma will beat my ass for dirtying my school skirt." I whined
"You Can just take it off.."
"What! Jungkook no!"      *jungkook laughs*

"Can I ask you something?"
"Gosh you ask to much questions! But I G-U-E-S-S!"
*smack his head*

"Why do you hurt me?"
Soon he got shy and stares straight to the beach waves and the people running around water while other sat on the sand to tan.

"There just a lot that runs through my head about you and I don't know how to feel or if I deserve you.. so I lash out. My Eomma has always told me to fight for what I want but my Appa has made me into this strong guy who takes no pity."

"That still doesn't explain why you hurt me so much"

*both sighed*

"Y/n I don't deserve you yet everyday I'm around you my heart beast fast and I just want to go up to you and show you how I feel. But I can't so I just lash out instead and make things worse. It's hard"

"Welp if your feeling something you try to work it out and go for what your feeling not be a complete ass whole. Jungkook I don't really know what you feel towards me but let me tell you this.. when I'm around you I feel like slapping you but at the same time hug you and feel safe."

Slowly he slid his fingers between mine and we sat there holding hands enjoying the view of the beautiful waves on the beach.

"The day of the rain when we hugged that meant something to me but I just can't say anything right now please understand."
"I guess..."

Slowly I leaned my head in his shoulder as the sun started going down and soon kiss sat by their moms to eat a snack. Other packing up to go home the beach seem like a place of peace.

A/n: okay so things are taking a turn IU is gone for now and Jungkook is slowly revealing his feeling towards you! Hmm keep reading to see what happens next. Thnx for reading see ya!