Take Me To Mars (Tododeku)

Chapter 5: Love Scars

"No fucking way." terror freezed up into my hands as I moved my body away from his. I could feel my face begin to fluster with confusion as I diverted my gaze.

"Nice to see you again." a deep laugh seeped from Todoroki's chest.

"Get out of here, delete my number. I want nothing to do with you!" I felt sick to my stomach. This was the last thing I wanted to experience, the last thing I needed to deal with. "Have you come as a replacement, that'll also fuck up my life just as much as he did, or worse?" words seemed to spit like venom as I steadily got up from my position.

"Calm down cinnamon roll. I was only letting you see the truth." the laughter faded from his voice as he got up to face me. I couldn't read the expression on his face but, it didn't look too settling.

"I've had enough ok! I don't want any of you near me. None of you! I'm done with everything. Everything I thought I had turned out to be all lies. The last thing I want is someone like you to fuck it up more!"

"Who says I've come here with bad intentions?"

"All you've ever done to me was fuck up my life. First the rude encounter at the bar, then the fucking apartment and, now, this? You know they always say the attractive ones are not how they always seem." my fists clenched as I turned away from him.

"I know those weren't the best situations but I am genuinely interested in you." I felt hands pull me back to Todoroki's built frame, as the hands wandered their way down to my waist. Softy, wrapping themselves around.

"No stop, I'm not an easy way ticket! I don't want to be touched by you. Like I said I want you gone, out of my life!" I turned to face him. His face looked hurt but, I didn't want to care. "Find some other to harass! Someone who has the same personality which is garbage!" I released my body from his grip and quickly scampered into my room. I felt the wind of the door as I slammed it behind me.

Anger surged through my system yet I could only cry. What did I do to deserve this? Sinking to my knees, tears carefully made their way down my face as I felt the pain stab at my chest. I flinched as I felt weight press against me from the other side of the door.

"Go away!" I shouted but, my voice gave away to the sobs of my chest.

"I'm not leaving until you hear me out." his voice sounded vulnerable as I pressed my head against the door.

"Just say what you came to say then leave me the fuck alone!"

"Izuku-" before Todoroki could say anything, a lithe voice with a deep tone interrupted with extreme worry.

"Deku!" trembling fear clutched my heart as I heard Kirishima's voice from outside the door.

"Ah maybe this is the wrong time to say it, I'll tell you later. You guys sound like you have important business to discuss." Todoroki's voice sounded disappointed as I heard his footsteps grow distant from where I was.

"Deku! Please listen to me! I really need to talk to you!" Kirishima's voice pleaded with the door to my trust as I heard him frantically knock. "Don't act like you left. I know you're still here!"

"What do you want from Kirishima." as much as I wanted to let him in, I felt my voice grow weak. I've dealt with too much today. I opened the door to reveal a red puffed up red head with water burned eyes. I couldn't find the need to give him sympathy. "Whatever you came to say, say it now. I'm so done with all of this."

"Deku whatever you saw, was not true! It was all an elaborate sabotage!" his voice sounded scared as if he was going to lose everything dear to him.

"Just go. I don't believe anything you say."

"Deku you aren't listening!"

I felt my body rush with adrenaline as I looked at him and pushed him a comfortable distance away. "That's bullshit and you know it! Do you think i'm that dumb? You think I didn't notice the way you looked at him in the bar, did you think I didn't notice how you mentioned his figure, his fucking body frame?" I choked onto my words, "It's all so clear. I thought you wanted me to be happy! Isn't that what you wanted too? You seriously think your fucked up betrayal wouldn't get leaked?"

Kirishima looked at me with a terrible facial expression but swallow down the burning agony of wanting to cry.

"Izuku Midoriya." he began. His eyes stayed directly on my making direct eye contact. I felt shivers run down me as I diverted my gaze. "Katsuki and I are roommates. It's why I know him well and why i told you to go talk to him. You never mentioned him to me so of course I thought you guys didn't know eachother." his breathing grew quicker as he continued, "Those pictures didn't show any signs of intimacy, I don't know who took them but we were just doing the usual. I know it seems awfully inconvenient but, please believe me Izuku!" he looked down at the floor. The room felt dampened with sadness as, I looked at him.

His hair was down, his eyes stained red with the obvious signs of tears, his eyes sagged and he didn't bother to dress nicely. I felt my heart sink as I thought about it more. My mouth felt dry as my heart thumped rapidly. I accused him, no.. Them both when it was all just a misunderstanding! Guilt found its way into my system as I felt my arms uncontrollably tug the red head into an embrace. "I'm so sorry Kirishima! I shouldn't have accused you so easily. That was so foolish of me to do, I- I didn't want it to end like this." I gently lifted up Kirishima's face to see a sad but wholesome smile formed on it.

"I was so scared I was going to lose you bro. And you should not be the one apologizing, if I were to tell you sooner we wouldn't be here like this." laughter slowly raised from his chest but faded quickly.

"No matter what happens between us Kirishima, I want to resolve it, no matter how hard it is." I looked up to see him nod with agreement.

Days seem to pass after that day. Though I haven't pulled myself all the way together, I always felt sudden urges to text Kacchan. To apologize for what I said to him, my heart pounded at the thought of it. Not only did I think about him but, I also thought about him. I remembered vivid scenes of that day, he wanted to tell me but he never fufilled that deed. I pushed it out of my mind as it didn't seem to matter.

What I really wanted to know was, am I still in love with Kacchan?

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