The Bad Ass And The Geek

Chapter 2

For the second time today I felt panic rising up inside me, it was like I had just hit boiling point. What did he want? I turned to see the once shocked Rachel, leaning against the window with her elbow wiggling her eyebrows at me and smirking. Again. I sighed and looked back at my phone.

"Seriously Rach, you're not helping with anything by doing that."

She winked at me and laughed smugly. "I told you he liked you. He lurvs you!"

I punched her in the arm, intending it to be hard but not to hard. She gasped at me and put her finger up, only then to burst into a fit of laughter.

"Oh my God Rachel! Shut the fuck up! You're making a scene! People are going to stare, plus they might have heard or even worse, seen what we were talking about!" I viciously whispered to her under my breath.

"Okay, okay, okay, fine. I'm sorry." she said between gulps of breath and trying so hard not to laugh anymore. I nodded at her, as if to say okay I forgive you. I started thinking about all the things James could end up saying to me or bringing up if we ended up talking. I winced at the thought of this. What if he just wanted to pick on me like everyone else? I feel my heart sink at the thought of it, why it did that I don't know. Clutching my belly, I moaned, I didn't feel too good. Rachel put her arm around me supportive,

"Are you okay chick?" she rubbed my shoulders softly.

"I'm not even sure. All of this James stuff is getting to me and I don't feel that good."

Rachel smiled at me and nudged me, "Aww, my little baby is getting her first crush and she's getting all nervous over him. So cute!" she blew air kisses at me and laughed. Is that actually what's happening to me? Am I actually getting my first crush?

"Is that what this is Rach?" I asked shuffling around in my seat a bit as I nervously wait for her answer.

"Hmm? What did you say Megs?" I glanced over in her direction immediately. Only to find her drawing an arrow heart on the fogged up window with mine and James's initials inside it.

"Oh my fucking God! What do you think you're doing Rachel!" I pushed her off the seat in a hurry to rub my initials and James's off the window, hoping that nobody else on the bus saw it. As soon as it was off the window, I switched my gaze straight over to my soon not to be friend rolling on the bus floor laughing. I kicked her hard in the shin.

"Ouch! What was that for!" She sat back on the seat now and rubbed her shin. "I'm going to have a bruise there now. Thanks a lot!"

I folded my arms and looked away from her, out of the window and watched the rain pour down it. "Tough shit. Rachel you need to grow up. Please, I actually need you to be mature about this. It's serious. I don't even know what's going on anymore." I turned to face her again, she must have sensed that I was upset. She grabbed my hand and squeezed it.

"Okay Megs. I promise I will behave from now on." She cocked her head towards me and then towards my phone, from which I had just accepted a request from James for some unknown reason. "Know what are we going to do about him?"

I pondered about the question, then decided of two things.

"Either I delete and block the contact, or I text him." I said glancing down at my phone checking if he had texted me yet. Nope, nothing.

"Text him. Nothing major, just hi or hey or something like that. You don't want to seem desperate." Rachel seemed pretty certain that this was the right answer. After all she was smart anyway, not as geeky as me, but still smart. It would seem as if she had been in this situation before. To be honest, she probably has. She has had a few boy friends, not tons, but a few, she is very pretty, prettier than me that's for sure. Her hair is a gorgeous shade of blonde, like a sun-kissed blonde, with flawless pale skin, plus she is just above average height which is absolutely prefect, she has startling blue eyes yet they glisten like sapphires and I can't even mention her figure. Yeah, I'm not jealous whatsoever. I am really. After thinking about all that, I manage to smile weakily at her,

"Okay sure." I sigh and smile at her again.

I quickly type Hey into a new chat with him. I gulp, take a massive breathe, and hit send. Rachel hugged me tightly.

"I can't believe you actually did that. Now all we have to do is wait." We both stared down at my phone and sat in silence, waiting, waiting patiently, for this one boy to text at least 2 letters back.

For the next 10 minutes, I kept thinking I felt my phone vibrate or I kept thinking I heard it buzz, but it didn't. I must just be getting worked up over all of this... this... well whatever this actually is. I have no idea whatsoever. I look out of the window sighing. I watch as all the different cars go past and all of the different people go past. I wonder how many people out there had un-told secrets, were too afraid to tell anyone because they have a fear of being judged. I think about how many people could have broken hearts at the moment and their out there with a smile on the face but inside they are falling apart, all because of that one person. This is exactly why I've never been involved with boys. I don't want to get hurt, I've seen other people's heart broken because of break ups. Now look at me, here I am, waiting for one text off a boy who probably didn't even know I existed until today.

I jumped in my seat. My ass was vibrating. Wait, that wasn't my ass, that was my phone in my back pocket. Quickly standing up I tried to reach to my back pocket for my phone. Only to find the room spinning around me and then everything going blurry, I must have stood up to fast. Shit. I felt somebody's arms around my waist steadying me, making sure I wouldn't fall over. After what seemed like a forever amount of time of swirls and dots covering my vision, my eyes came back into focus. I noticed a very worried Rachel clutching onto me.

"Oh my God. Are you okay? What happened?" she asked whilst sitting me back down onto my seat.

"I felt my phone vibrate and must have stood up to fast." I rubbed my head, now I had a massive migraine. Great.

"Oh. Well at least your okay now." she looked away, then quickly turned her head right back.

"Wait. Did you say your phone went off!" a massive beaming smile emerged on both of our faces. I quickly grabbed the phone and unlocked it. Right on the front of my BBM chats was a notice.

Message From James Matthews