My not so happy ending! *ON HOLD*

Chapter 16 ~the decision~

*Hazel's POV*

        When I woke up in the hospital I was hoping all of this was just some crazy dream. That my baby really hadn't died, and my parents weren't still trying to find Jackson and I, and I wasn't cheating on the father of my baby. But when I saw Jackson sleeping next to me in the chair, I knew it wasn't some crazy dream, it had really happened and I could feel my heart break more. 

        I rolled over on my other side and was shocked to see Billy sitting on the floor with his head in his hands. It kind of looked like he was crying, but i couldn't be sure. 

        "Hey." I whispered to Billy and I think I scared him a little. 

        "Hey, how are you feeling?" He asked me while trying to get up from the floor. 

        "Honestly?" i asked and he nodded a little. "I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my body and a piece of me has just died. Well, in a way, it did because that piece was my baby, but you know what i mean." 

        Billy just nodded and walked closer to me. "I'm sorry. I can't even imagine what you must be going through right now." And then he bent over and hugged me. 

        "Thanks." I said as he pulled away. "Have you been here this whole time?" 

        "Yeah, Jackson and I both. I tried to make him come home to shower and eat, but he wouldn't leave your side. He really loves you, you know." 

        "Yeah, I know." Which made me feel worse about the whole 'cheeting on him with his cousin' thing. 

        Just then, a nurse came in with a chart. "Oh good, you're up." she said with a smile and started writing something down on the clipboard. "How are you feeling? Any stomach pain? Any extra bleeding?"

        "um.. I feel sick and sad, and I do still have stomach pain, just not as bad. And I don't think I have any extra bleeding either." I said quietly. 

        "okay,  well the sadness is common and the stomach pain should be going away soon too. But if there is any extra bleeding please let us know." 

        "Okay, I'll call you if the bleeding happens." 

        "Okay. Do you have any questions?" She asked as she put the chart at the end of my bed. 

        "Not right now." I said as I looked over at Jackson, who was still sound asleep. 

        "Okay, well I'll be back in a little bit to check on you." She said and walked out of the room. 

        "Hey, there's something I need to tell you." I said looking at Billy. 

        "Anything." He said walking closer to me and grabbed my hand. 

        "I don't think I can marry Jackson." I said so quietly he almost didn't hear me.

        "What? Why not? Is it because of us?" He asked a little less quieter than me. 

        "Um.. well.. a little.. yes. But mostly because every time I try to look at him, all I think about was our baby and that's just gonna put me into depression which will later put him into depression and who knows what will happen after that." I said trying not to cry. 

        "I'm sorry Hazel. All of this never shuld've happened to someone so caring and loving and special like you." Billy said kissing my cheek softly. 

        "Thanks Billy, but after everything I've done to Jackson, making him run away with me and making him marry me and then cheating on him, I do deserve all of this. Because in all honesty, I'm not the caring, loving, spacial, person everyone thinks I am. And I am ashamed of myself. But It's Jackson that shouldn't have to go through any of this." I said as I felt a tear roll down my cheek and I wipe it away and close my eyes before Billy can notice.

        Just then, I felt someones lips being pressed against mine and I recognize them instantly. They're Billy's. I open my eyes and pull away before he can kiss me any longer. I turn over and look at the chair where Jackson was sleeping but he wasn't sleeping anymore. He just saw Billy and I kiss. Holy shit. What have I done! 

         "Jackson! um.. I-" but i couldn't finish before he just got up and ran out of the room. 

        "Shit, shit, shit, shit!" I said as I was about to get up to go after him I felt a hand on my shoulder.

        "Stay here. You shouldn't get up yet. I'll go talk to him. Just stay here, please." Billy said and I laid back down but I couldn't stop crying, again. 

*Jackson's POV* 

        I woke up from being sound asleep to hear Hazel and Billy talking. Well at least its good they're getting along now. I just kept my eyes closed and listened to what they were talking about. I couldn't really make out what they were saying, but what I did hear was Billy say "What? Why not? Is it because of us?" And that was enough for me to open my eyes and listen to Hazel's answer. 

        "um.. well.. a little.. yes. But mostly because every time I try to look at him, all I think about was our baby and that's just gonna put me into depression which will later put him into depression and who knows what will happen after that." 

        US?! THERE'S AN US NOW! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED WITH HAZEL AND BILLY! But before I could speak up I saw Billy lean in and kiss Hazel. It wasn't long in real life, but to me it felt like an eternity. I don't think she knew what was happening because her eyes were closed when he leaned in, but still, she must have said or done something to make him want to kiss her. Hazel was the one to pull away and when she did, she looked over at me and before she could say anything I got up and ran out the door almost in tears. 

        I ran down the hall and stopped, remembering I was in a hospital, so I just went to the wall and slid down it and put my head in my hands. About a minute later Billy came and sat down next to me. Great. *note the sarcasm*

        "Go away Billy." I said as well as I could without my voice cracking. 

        "No." He said and I lifted my head and looked into his eyes. "Not until we talk."

        "Talk?!? Really! Okay, let's talk. Lets talk about how you just kissed my soon-to-be-wife and didn't even care that I was in the room! Let's talk about how I just lost my baby and you seem more interested with getting in Hazel's pants! But most importantly, lets talk about how I trusted you, and you turn around and stab me in the back! You just proved you are the dick I always thought you were." After I said that I felt better, not much, but still better.

        "Jackson?" A woman's voice said from behind me and I turned around to see it was Hazel's mother.

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