Thomas Brodie-Sangster Imagines

Sorrows and woes

A/N:
WARNING! Suicide, abuse, death, bullying
This story is going to be depressing AF so if you don't like that then feel free to skip it - I promise the next chapter I write will be super cheery and cheesy
BTW has any of you seen "A series of unfortunate events"?
I just finished watching the show again for like the gazillion time and that's were I got my inspiration from
> check out the song above <
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But there's no happy ending
Not here and not now
This tale is all sorrows and woes
You dream that justice
And peace win the day
But that's not how the story goes

To say that Y/N had had a tough life would be an understatement.

Her mother had committed suicide when she was just 6 years old leaving her alone with her dad. He always blamed his daughter for her mother's death. This resulted in both oral and physical abuse.

When she was 10 years old she was finally removed from her abusive and alcoholic dad. She ended up living with her aunt who only saw her as a burden.

In school she was bullied because she couldn't afford the proper clothes and couldn't hang out after school. They called her a weirdo, a loner and a loser.

When she was in high school she worked two part time jobs. She also had to babysit her younger cousins because her aunt was almost constantly out partying with new guys every night. She left her own kids in the care of a girl who physical still was a kid but had to grow up at a young age.

Even though it all Y/N kept her head held high. She stood up for others and cared. When she did something she did it 100%. She barely had any time to herself and when she did she had to study. She worked so hard and it finally paid off. She got almost straight A's even though she had so much going on.

She ended up landing a scholarship to a semi good college. Finally things were taking a turn for the better.

This was also were she met Thomas. From the very first moment the two laid eyes on each other they were drawn to one another.

Thomas POV

If I had to describe Y/N in one word it would be "perfect". She had been through so much in her life and yet she still showed up everyday with a smile on her face. She also put other in front of herself.

We had known each other for almost a full year before I finally worked up the courage to ask her out. Things escalated quickly from there on.

We soon became "campus cutest couple". I couldn't care less what people called us because we were in love.

After graduation I took a big leap and asked her to move in with me. Thank god she said yes. We moved into our new apartment. Everything seemed to be going right. But you know what people say - "don't jinx it"

Tragedy struck only two weeks after we moved in. Moving boxes still stood unpacked in the room just waiting to be opened.

After a long day of work I finally came home. I expected to find Y/N there but all I found was a note on the kitchen counter.

Hey babe
I just went to the groceries store to get you your favorite candy because I know how much you love them after a hard day at work
Love Y/N

I smiled to myself. I had truly landed the best girl in the world. I sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. I must have fallen asleep at some point because when I woke up it was pretty dark outside.

Y/N should have been home by now. I got worried. Usually she would text me if she was late. I couldn't shake this bad feeling in my stomach.

Just as I was about to call her there was a knock on the door. Hopefully it was Y/N. But she wouldn't knock on the door. She had a key. Well maybe she forgot?

I opened the door with a smile but that quickly faded when I saw two police officers standing outside with a sorrow filled look on their faces.

"Are you Mr. Sangster?" One of the officers asked.

"Yes that's me. Is something wrong?" My heart must have been beating a 1000 beat per minute.

"We are very sorry to inform you this, but there was a robbery at a local grocery store and unfortunately miss Y/L/N was shot. I'm very sorry but she didn't make it..." they informed me.

It felt like my whole world came crashing down. I couldn't hear the rest of what the officers said. Y/N was gone.

I would never hold her in my arms again.

Never feel her soft lips on mine again.

Never hear the divine sound of her sweet laughter.

Never see her eyes sparkle like a million stars.

Y/N had been nothing but good in her life. She didn't deserve this. Tears were rolling down my cheeks. I didn't care who saw me. All I wanted was Y/N.

There's no happy ending
Not here and not there
This tale is all sorrow and woes
You might dream that justice
And peace win the day
But that not how the story goes

I once loved a girl
And she thought well of me
We thought we'd be happy together
But now I'm alone
As you can well see
And she cold in her grave forever

I was standing in front of her grave. All the other guests at the funeral had already left.

The rain was pouring down almost as if the would was crying too. Tear drops were mixed with rain drops.

"Hey Y/N. It's been a week since you... since you.... since you d-died. I don't know what to do without you. The worlds is just cold and grey. All the color in the world seemed to have faded after you are gone. I would be lying if I said I hadn't thought about joining you in the forever after, but I know you wouldn't want that of me so I won't do it. I will stay strong for you. Oh god it hurts so much. I know you can't hear me. Well I hope you can because I won't you to know that I love you. I've said it to you a million times but I still feel like I haven't said it enough. And now I realize I will never hear you say it back. Y/N you were my world. I know we were till young and we've only known each other a couple of years but I had no doubt that you were the one for me. The one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Heck I even bought you a ring. I was just waiting for the right moment and now I will never have another moment with you. I hope I will see you again someday.
Y/N you were my world
My moon
My stars
My sun
My oxygen
You gave me strength
Hope
Courage
I don't know what I will do without you but I have to try because you're gone and I'm still here"

I pulled out the ring from my pocket which I had been fiddling with the entire time. I placed it next to the many flowers on her grave.

With one last look I turned around and walked away. The sound of my shattered heart following me.