Falling apart each time more
My chest hurts of keeping all these things inside
Trying to show myself emotionless with people
When in reality I'm drowning in a pool of feelings in my head
I thought everything was over
When that weight came off of my chest
But I was clearly wrong
When it was stronger
My back was carrying dumbbells
My shoulders getting sore
Each time I get more weak
When I care too much about people
Some of the problems that my back carries aren't even mine
I'm drowning in a pool that people filled in with my tears
Teaching me how I should let go people that hurt me
I thought about confronting all of my problems
But my body gets a goosebump all over my spine
Making me hesitate about the battle with my own mind
People have helped me to climb the wall when I was alone
But some of the ropes just get cut
Making me fall
My goal is far away from what I really want
But at the end of the day
Is the same routine
The same shit that I have to deal with every single day
My mental state is getting used to it
Being stuck between 4 walls
Sounds more soothing than having all stares upon me
Burning me
I push myself to climb a wall without ropes
But my mind makes it sound impossible
People just try to help
When I just push them away
Thinking that I can do everything by myself
I have flashbacks of my past
Making sure that I don't commit the same mistakes
This time the waves will remain calm
The burning fire will turn into an ember
The pressure within myself will get weak
As I get strong from it
I haven't gave up, yet
Just let my actions speak.
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts of a stranger.
PoesíaWhat your eyes are reading, are thoughts of a person that lets everything out to a simple writing, but with a lot of feelings.
