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Chapter 8

Erens pov
I have a couple things on my mind at the moments and most of the are to do with.... Levi . Why'd did he apologise? Does he feel bad ? What is he planning next ? These where just some of the questions going through my head at 150 miles per hour .

After what happened this morning I've been left utterly confused by the days events
First it was Levi's apology then I met someone called hanji and she ( I don't know if I should use she or them so for now I'll use she ) is actually really nice and very easy to talk to I feel like I can talk to her about anything but I won't because I don't know her well enough you never know she might betray me like Levi did .

2 Months later
Levi's pov
I'm walking down the hall minding my own business... for once . Holding Petra's hand we've been together about 2 months now and she's honestly annoying the absolute crap out of me but enough of that .
As I'm walking down the hallway when I hear the sound of sobs coming from the bathroom and recognise them immediately, without thinking I push open the bathroom door to see one stool locked and the rest empty so I know it's just us in here . Taking a second glance I notice bloody tissues on the floor , without thinking about it I kick the door down and rush to Erens side taking him into an embrace ... what the hell is wrong with me ! .

"Le-vi ?" Eren stammers out my name with a small barely noticeable hiccup between the two syllables of my name as he does so .
"Yeah Eren it's me , your okay now ... you'll be okay . What's wrong ? Why have you done this to yourself ?" I asked trying not to let me anger seep through as I spoke .
To my question he broke down into tears sobs racking his shoulders as he cry's harder .
"I..it's m..my mum" he chokes out .
"Your mum ?" I questions softly . Which is unusual for me . What is this boy doing to me !
"Y..yeah she um ... S...she died last n..night " he responded pain evident in his voice .
"She died ? Oh god Eren I'm so sorry" I patted his shoulder not knowing what else to do
He brushes my hand off of him "CAN YOU STOP FUCKING APOLOGISING TO ME ! ESPECIALLY IF YOU DONT MEAN IT!" He shouts at me .
To say I felt guilty would be an understatement,I felt absolutely dreadful what he said hit a sore point somewhere in my head and I don't know what made me do this or what force made this happen but I pulled him into my arms and ran my fingers through his soft brown hair ,staying still with him in my arms until his sobs died down .
"Do you want to talk about it" I ask softly reaching up and locking the bathroom door so no one can walk in, I glanced down at him to see him looking back at me with doubtful eyes . If you could see the look on his face you'd see what I mean . You can see the clogs moving round in his mind trying to figure out if I'm being genuine and if he can trust me . And it was this moment I realised how badly I'd fucked up . Not only did I hurt a sweet , kind innocent boy but I took away his bright cheerful smile and any possible friends he might have had , what kind of messed up person am I ?
"I went home .. l..last night and t..there she w..was" i wanted to question how but I knew that if he wanted to tell me he would so I sat and waited for him to continue .
"She was h...hanging from the c..ceiling with a r..r.rope around her neck the chair kicked out from beneath her" he replied violently sobbing again . I pulled him closer to me and rocked us back and forth slowly as if he was a baby in a cradle , not wanting to speak or ask questions I just sat there and held him . Secretly hoping that if the tables were ever to be reversed he'd do the same for me . "And do you know what will top it off ? People starting on me for NO ABSOLUTE FUCKING REASON!" He shouted the last part in pure anger taking me by surprise and making me jump 60ft in the air .

There was one thing I'd decided in that moment , seeing how broken and abused this once bright , cheerful brown haired boy is . And that thing was..... I'd do anything to try stop these tears from happening again no matter what it took . Wheather I'd be a shoulder for him to cry on after school or a friend he can hopefully learn to trust again , id do ANYTHING to get his bright smile back on his face even if that means me being the loner of the school ... hopefully that doesn't happen tho .

Hi everybody I'm sorry this chapter took quite a while to upload and it's abit shorter than my other ones , hopefully you all enjoyed I can't wait to hear from you .
Hopefully Levi will begin to start being nicer to Eren now , who knows ?

Thanks for reading I'll get the next chapter up as soon as possible .
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