Heartbreaker

Chapter 15

Alex's POV

I never seen one of my victims after I broke their heart. My heart ached seeing mason so heartbroken. He stank like he hadn't showered in days and I could see the clothes and trash he had stuffed under his couch. He looked like he hadn't shaved in months and his breath smelled even worse. Then he told me he found out about my business I couldn't believe it. How the hell did he find out? I wanted to tell him I gave it up but I didn't see the point. The damage was already done.

I really did miss him. Being near him made all our memories come crashing back. I really did love him. The fact that he wanted a paternity test hurt me a lot but I couldn't blame him for all he knows I could be fucking every guy I see. I pushed my thoughts of mason aside I need to focus on the babies. Our babies. There was this gratitude that radiated off of me knowing that I was having his babies. They're a symbol of our love after all. I just wished they were conceived in a loving way. I slept with mason as payback and to hurt him when he realized he'd never get that again from me.

Stop thinking about Mason

I forced my feet to move away from his front door; away from him. It took a lot for me to hid my feelings over the last month but being so close to him made everything harder to keep at bay. I wanted to cry. All my life I've tried to prevent heartbreak and now look at me. The sad part is all I could think about was rushing in there and kissing him even after he cheated on me. I can't act like I have no part in this after all I was set out to hurt him from the beginning. And despite it all, I still love him and trust him more than I've ever trusted anyone.

"Do you ever wonder what happens after you die?" I asked.

I knew it was cynical and definitely what you want to hear when you've just had an amazing dinner but it's all I ever think about. Why I feel the need to talk to mason about this is beyond me. I just couldn't help but ask.

"No, I don't but I just hope wherever I am you're near," he said his eyes gazing into mine. He was searching for something but I couldn't figure out what. "My life seems very pointless without you in it."

You would think I would be thrilled to hear it. I had a plan and it was on track but something felt wrong thinking about following through with it. I've had men fall in love with me before but this was different. His comments didn't make me cringe or groan on the inside; they did the opposite. I felt tingly and giddy every time he said anything to me. I wanted his love so much but I didn't want this to end yet.

I stood up from the grass we've been laying on for the last two hours and walked over to his pool stripping down to my bra and underwear. I needed to prevent him from saying more at least for now. I dove into the water and when I surfaced I seen mason standing over the water with a smirk on his face. I made the mistake of lower my gaze and I seen a slight bulge in his pants causing me to gulp loudly.

"I could have undressed you if you waited for me baby," he said stripping down to just his boxers.

I always hated being called baby but from his lips it made me want to faint. I couldn't keep my eyes away from him. His muscles tensing as he lifted his arms to remove his shirt. His boxer hanging dangerously low on his hips making my imagination run wild. I wanted to lick a trail down his chest leaving marks letting everyone know he's mine.

He dived into the water. The water splashing in my face knocking me out of my fantasies. The next thing I know I'm under water. This asshole really pulled me under. Pushing away from his hold I resurface gasping for air only to find a laughing Mason in front of me.

"You're an asshole," I snapped wiping the water from my face.

"True but I'm your asshole," he grinned.