"Tell us!" Kyungsoo shouts. "I really wanna know. Baekhyun isn't just anyone. You know i don't care about mostly anyone so, please. We've all known eachother, we know Baekhyun's known Chanyeol longer and gets along with CX more but he needs us."
"Well..." He picks Baekhyun's head up so now his head is on Heechul's shoulder. "Baekhyun and i have known eachother for a while now. I know things you don't and you know things i don't. Mainly, because he doesn't open up. You see, when i was younger, Baekhyun and i didn't like eachother. Why? Baekhyun always had that stupid yet adorable smile on his face and i fucking knew it was fake. I've been with him and i knew it. Baekhyun and i got along better after we opened up to me about... Things. He sais it was okay if i shared it with you so you won't ask him any questions. Baekhyun..."
"Baekhyun has tried to take his life more than once. He was 10 when he first tried. He didn't know what he was doing but he knew he wanted to feel the burning pain you feel when you do it. You know? The feel when you cough roughly? Anyway, he always came to me after. He then disappeared for one month or so, and i tries to call him, with no reply."
"Go on." Kyungsoo then looks at the sleeping boy in Heechul's arms and smiles sadly. "He's been on heroin–" Kyungsoo laughs loudly at that. Why hadn't Baekhyun said anything!? "Shut the fuck up! He's asleep!" Heechul whisper yells. Kyungsoo nods and sits down again.
"He's been on heroin. He had told me and i swore that i didn't leave his side. He would do it when he promised me he wouldn't and that hurt so bad. I wanted to protect him. That's when i had an idea. Help him by getting someone he wants. Sehun." The younger male looked up at the mention of his name and was quite happy but confused.
"Sehun. The only dumbass bitch Baekhyun C A R E D about. He would talk about how Sehun helped him with things and he made him have hope. Chanyeol was the one he mentioned once, and it made me happy. Not because i like the jackass but because of the way he said it. He said it with a smile on his face. With love in his eyes." Both Chanyeol and Sehun were in tears while the others were trying to hold it in.
"Now, i walked into him one time. I saw the needle and i– lost my fucking shit. He promised me and he fucking broke it! Now at that, i tried taking the shit out of his hands. I couldn't of course. It was hard but i tried. Baekhyun kicked me once i got it and lost his shit. He ended up screaming at me for–" Heechul looked down at the boy, smiled softly with tears falling, and ruffled his hair. The others were in tears as well.
This is where Heechul's voice cracked. "He t–told me t–to kill him. He begged me. He was on his knees and said the words, God! Can't you hear me!? I was in agony! Couldn't you hear me!? I was screaming! I broke down in tears after. I couldn't hell him and i fucking hated it! I NEEDED HIM AND HE NEEDED TO BE HELPED! HE NEEDED ME! HE NEEDED ME–"
Lay was the first to get up and leave the room but came back and you could see his tear stained cheeks. Heechul looked at him and smiled. "Sit down asshole, this parts for you." When Lay nodded, that's when Baekhyun moved a bit and the others thought it was so cute.
"Lay, you son a bitch. You're the last one because it's the best one. Baekhyun saw you. And you saw him. There was a spark immediately. Baekhyun came home, smiling. A real smile." He sniffles. "He said, there's this guy who looked at me and i swore i shit my pants, and that's when i laughed. I told him i didn't like you already. Baekhyun was mine and only mine."
He laughed. "Truth is, i didn't like anyone who befriended Taehyung because they would always hurt him. I tried to protect him–" He looked to Chanyeol. "But i failed." Baekhyun turned his head a little, which caused him to fully wake up. He lifted his head, turned around, and looked at the men in the room. "I– gotta go." He says before he gets up and softly closes the door.
"Anyway, Lay, he loves you." Lay smiled but was confused. "Why is he with Minseok?" Heechul huffed but then spoke. "You see–" He laughs nervously. "He doesn't like him. He thinks he does. He sees Minseok as a friend only. He's told me. Minseok sees Baekhyun as a friend. He knows what Baekhyun wants. Only needs. Baekhyun needs things. But he can't fully– do it." Chanyeol sits up and with a nod from Heechul, he continues.
"Baekhyun–" He starts. "Baekhyun and i have had sex–" Lay laughs at this. "Anyway, we have. Baekhyun isn't a virgin. But, he likes to tell people he is. Mostly because he likes being an innocent kid. Thing is, Baekhyun... Had these marks on his stomach and arms."
"He told me it was nothing but i knew it was something more. The next day, i went to work, well, not really but i told him i did. Anyway, i heard him crying. I immediately opened the door and saw what i hoped i didn't have to. I saw a blade in his hands, and he was covered him blood. He told me not to take him to the hospital but to do exactly what he told Heechul. I called him–" He points to Heechul. "After." Heechul nodded and then took over.
"I talked him. But he didn't respond. He didn't talk to me for 5 months. He looked at me with hatred. I hated it. I hated that shit so much. Baekhyun wasn't someone who hated anyone, and when he looked at me like that, he broke my heart. I needed him to at least smile for me, which he didn't."
"He always told me that he loved me and everyone he needed. He stopped caring after. He stopped telling me he did and what i hear from Minseok, he stopped telling him as well."
"I know i needed to tell him something. I knew it. Baekhyun told me not to worry. I told him i wouldn't but i did. I loved him and still do. Why am i telling you guys this? Because he is now back to square one. He won't eat. He won't sleep. He won't speak as much. He loves one man. I know. I just don't know who. I don't know what to do. The other reason i stopped Baek and Min from doing anything was because Baekhyun wasn't himself."
"Baekhyun does drugs. Baekhyun has been losing weight and losing sleep. He tells me hes okay but he's a fucking terrible liar. He can't lie to me and I've noticed that. That day that Min said he would punish Baekhyun just because Lay was a turned on piece of shit, i knew i had to stop it."
"Baekhyun was high that day. He also– was on heroin." Lay clenched his fists at this and spoke. "HE WAS ON HEROIN AND YOU DIDN'T FUCKING DO SHIT!? HE WAS ON H E R O I N E! HE JUST DID THAT AND YOU DIDN'T TAKE HIM–" Heechul got up and slapped him.
"Baekhyun was on heroin and he fucking told me not to tell you fuckers because he was scared! HE FUCKING HAS THE MARKS ON HIS BODY! THE CUTS, THE BRUISES, THE SCARS, AND THE NEEDLE MARKS! THE POOR KID CAN'T EVEN FUCKING BREATHE! HE'S TOO SCARED! I TOLD YOU THIS SO I COULD FEEL LIKE I WAS HELPING! NOW IT'S TIME FOR YOU FUCK FACES TO FUCKING HELP HIM TOO!" He backs away, walks towards to Baekhyun's door, and goes inside. He didn't come out after. He didn't do anything.
They fucked up.
