For so long,
I've pretended I never wanted you.
I pretended I didn't want to love you,
I lied to myself on a daily basis,
Because I knew that I wasn't,
Who you could have ever wanted.
Now I'm stuck,
With someone I've never loved,
Never wanted to love,
While watching you have,
The time of your life.
I'm not gritting my teeth in jealousy,
I'm not grinning and bearing it,
For the sake of someone's feelings.
Surely I'd be being honest,
But I'm lying still.
I still wanted you,
Then I had to stop,
Because you finally had someone.
I'm so tired of pretending.
Pretty girl,
You know I don't love you,
I'm sorry,
But that's the stupid truth.
Funny girl,
You know who you are,
I'm sorry,
But this is the hidden truth.
I'm standing in the pool of my own hate,
My own visceral mind,
For the sake of preserving,
The feelings of these people.
Why did you have to fall for her?
It's easier to live as friends.
Why do I have to watch this?
It was easier to pretend before.
Why did the dynamic have to change?
I wish for it to go back to how it was,
Then all our feelings would stay the same.
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Just A Mess
PoetryI'm not too sure as to what this is, but I often get bored and lost in my thoughts, so why not write them out? As I wrote I created poetic sentences, lines and phrases. So, I hope they can be enjoyed despite their mainly heavy topics. This book cove...
