My Terror Twin And I

Alone

"I'm not fucking crazy" I sighed as the nurse tried to give me medication

"Scarlett please just take it" she begged

"Ugh what's it for?" I grumbled, holding one of many pills I had to take

"Depression, it'll help you see the happy side of things" she smiled

"I don't want a "false reality" I don't want to pretend to be happy" I mumbled

"Well you need to at least try these ones" she mumbled, pushing another bottle at me

"What do these do?" I sighed

"These ones motivate you Scarlett. You'll actually want to get up and face the day" she pleaded with me to take them

"Fine" I agreed, taking the bottle from her

"Will you try these?" She begged, handing me a small box

"Ugh what do these do?" I groaned

" anxiety pills love, so you can talk to people and not just hide away" she pushed the box in my face

"Ok" I whined

She got me to agree to some bipolar medication, antidepressants, anxiety pills, pills for my PTSD, other pills for depression and some sleeping pills.

"Scarlett, the same time, morning and night" she repeated, I guess I'd zoned out

"Same time morning and night" I said

"Gooooood! Now your last session of in hospital therapy and then you can go home" she smiled

I sighed as she left my room.

I slipped on my grey sweat pants and a loose white jumper. I tied my fading red hair into a pony tail and slipped on my vans before dragging myself to Dr.Reds office

"Knock knock" I said Into the room.

"Come in Scarlett, we have a very important therapy to prepare you for going home" beamed red. He was so jolly with his bright red cheeks and white hair.

I sat on the couch awkwardly only to see ben and Megan walk in.

"Red why?" I groaned

"Because you live next door to Benjamin and Megan is your housemate. Don't forget about school either" red chucked

"Scarlett I'd like you to listen to Benjamin and Megan please. No interruptions, listen. Try to understand" smiled red

I nodded awkwardly as I looked at my feet

"Scarlett, I am so sincerely sorry for my actions. I never intended to do that. The alcohol and the moment took over and I didn't think. I love you to pieces" spoke Megan awkwardly

"Very good, Scarlett please answer her CALMLY please" spoke red

"Megan, I am highly disappointed and hurt that you had sexual intercourse with MY boyfriend multiple times while I was asleep next to you. I think it's a horrible thing to do. I'm not going to kick you out because as I've said it's our house, but it's going to take a very long time for me to be able to look at you the same" I mumbled, staring at the floor.

"Okay very nice Scarlett, Benjamin please talk to Scarlett now" smiled red

"Scarlett, I know I made a huge mistake, I'm young and stupid and I thought with my penis. I do seriously love you more than anything though. I never left your side while you were in that coma. I know you'll never want me back but I'll miss being with you in more than one way. Please let me be your friend because I don't want to lose you completely." Ben pleaded through his tears.

I handed him a tissue and red nodded for me to speak

"Ben, you're literally the love of my life. We are young and we make mistakes and hopefully one day in the future I'll be with you again. It's going to be hard but yes we can stay friends. I'll always love you" I sobbed

"Very very good" red praised

"Thankyou Megan, Thankyou ben. If you'd like one of you can take Scarlett home" red smiled

They nodded, thanked him and walked awkwardly to my room.

I quietly gathered my things and walked to Megan's car.

I hugged my nurse at the doors and slumped in the backseat of the car.

Ben sat in the back with me

"Are you doing okay?" Ben asked

I just nodded and looked out the window.

*one month later*

I took another swig of bourbon and sighed.

I ran my fingers along the deep scars on my wrist and picked up my school bag.

"Shall I drive you?" Asked Megan

I shook my head and picked up my keys.

I didn't wear makeup and my hair was pretty much always up nowadays. I didn't talk to anyone either, no matter how much they tried to speak to me I just didn't talk.

My phone beeped

A text from ben

Ben "hey scar, hope you slept okay. I'll see you at school"

I replied with a smiley face and climbed into my car.

School didn't start for another half hour so I picked up a caramel latte at a cafe on the way.

Ben just so happened to pull up next to me at the traffic lights.

He waved and wound down his window

"Hey Scarlett" he smiled

I replied with a weak grin and a wave. I shouldn't be driving I was pretty tipsy but it was okay I guess.

School dragged on and on. Finally lunch came around. I trudged to the cafeteria and got chips. I never had anyone sit with me and frankly I didn't want them to so I went to the abandoned stairwell and settled down.

I saw ben and the boys walk past, they didn't notice me, I thought anyway.

Ben, Sam and James came in, Danny and cam followed shorty after.

Ben smiled at me and I gave him a weak smile back.

Sam came in for a hug. He and Megan had split up after what she did and he was the only one I said a word to.

"I'll call you after school" Sam whispered

I smiled and mouthed "alright

Everyone left aside from Danny.

He came and plonked next to me.

"I'm sorry" he mumbled

I raised my eyebrow in confusion

"For this" he sighed before dragging me upstairs.

Ben was stood at the top of the stairs looking down awkwardly. Danny ran off after pushing me towards him.

"Scar, why aren't you speaking?" Ben sighed as he hugged me softly

I looked at my feet as i shuffled around a little

"Scarlett please?" Ben whined

I looked into his beautiful eyes and my heart skipped a beat.

He cracked a small smile and pulled me in for a hug.

"I love you" he whispered through his tears into my ear

"I love you ben" I whispered before trying to pull away

Ben kissed me gently and let me go