BO$$ED UP!

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"Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...waaaaaa"
One am and this boy done woke me up like ten times since bedtime
"What's wrong now Mateo?" I picked him up
"Otay wittle guy, mommy's here" I rocked him back to sleep
Alejandro told me he was going somewhere but I forgot I was so tired that I wasn't listening
*knock* *knock*
Who tf is at the door at this time wtfffff
I walked downstairs and looked out the hole, it was pitch black, 👎 nope
I made sure the door was locked before getting one of aces guns and dialing his number
Hesmyace♠️: open the door!!

Alejandro has his keys wtf is he texting me for, I should let him sleep out there
Jk.
"Don't you have your key-"
"I left them on the counter, my bad I'm rushing I'm not trying to scare you, someone hacked my security system I just need to lock it and change the code" Alejandro started rambling while walking around the house looking for something
"What you looking for?"
"My MacBook"
"Oh it's under the coffee table"
"Thank you"
I locked the door then sat on the couch with him
"You can go back to bed if you want"
"No I wanna be with you" I clutched onto him
"Oh you miss Papí huh?"
"Yes" I groaned
"Don't worry babe six weeks will fly"
"No it won't" I mumbled
"It will, gimme kiss" I leaned up and gave him a pop kiss
He closes the laptop and put it on the coffee table
"When all this blows over, ima take you out on a real vacation, where we ain't gotta worry bout what happened the other night"
"I can't wait" I smiled
"I love you ma" he bit his lip
"I love you too" well I guess I was wrong he does love me, idk why all of a sudden I've been doubting myself
"Waaaaaaaa" again!
"I got it baby, we might as well go on upstairs"
"Ok"

******

"Good morning my love"
"Good morning baby"
I jumped in the bathroom to get all cleaned up, you know after birth you have your period and I must get cleaned
I actually don't wear underwear, I have to wear those diapers to hold myself
So I got cleaned up and put on some jeans and a sports bra with a yellow hoodie and some yellow socks
"Smells good, good morning lani bug" I tickled and kissed her
"Morni mama"
"How you feeling?"
"Good I eat"
"Oou did you already bathe?"
"Mhm"
"Ok"
I went behind ace and hugged him, he felt tense af
"Are you Okay?"
"Yeah I'm Fine" he sighed
no he's not okay but I lie about being okay just as much as he does, I just don't want to worry him and he doesn't want to worry me
"If I tell you what's bothering me, you have to tell me what's bothering you"
"Fine"
"Where's Mateo?"
"In the living room watching tv"
I went to the living room to see my happy baby smiling and kicking while watching tv
"Good morning Mateo, someone looks happy"
He looked at me and pulled on my bottom lip
"Are you hungry?" I played with his hand
"Bbbbpffttttrxgbrbrbrllllll"
"Okay here" I put the binky in his mouth and he went straight to sleep
"Here's your food" I put Mateo down then grabbed my plate
"Thank you"
Pancake eggs hash brown bacon sounds yum
"You're welcome"
I sat at the table with lani
"Mama cold your phon"
"Here"
"Yay Thank yew"
"So what are we doing today?"
"Remember, teo can't really be outside"
"Oh yeah, well I guess we could go to the theatre"
"You have to watch twilight with me!"
"Really?"
"Yes plz Bae it's good"
"Ok fine"

*

We were now just chilling, Mateo was watching tv and lani was running around in the room
"Ready to talk?"
"Yeah sure"
"You first"
"Im worried.......being here doesn't feel as safe as before, I feel like it's all my fault, everything I'm putting you through, I think I'm actually scared for y'all, for us"
"Look, I don't care what happens babe, we're a team and I know what I signed up for, plus nobody is gonna do anything, we just need a vacation let's leave tomorrow, we could take the kids I don't mind staying in even if it's somewhere fun"
"You're right, so wussup with you?"
"Oh well...I just......after I had Mateo something just.....I don't know how to explain it, I just hate myself, I just, I don't know"
"Depressed?"
"Yeah That!"
"That usually happens after women give birth, but you wanna know something, I love you no matter how you look, I'm going to always be there for you, always cuz you ma lil baby"
I blushed, that's what I'm saved under in his phone
"You know, if you ever feel like you need to leave me because of what you think you put me through, I'm gonna tie you to the bed and set this house on fire, understand?"
"Yes ma'am"