The Unexpected Heartache

chapter two

Y/n perspective
I wake up from the sound of snow falling on what sounds like a balcony, but I don't know how because I don't have a balcony. I open my eyes and see that I'm in a bedroom that's not mine, it looks like someone rich would own this place. I freak out and look next to me to see him. The boy who I feel in love with after just one day. He is peacefully sleeping and he looks ten times more beautiful than I remember. I look down and see I'm still in his shirt which starts bringing back all last nights memories. The way he apologised when he walked in on me naked and how he ordered my favourite pizza without even knowing. Then I remember the kiss, the reason I knew there was something different about Shawn. It was different to other kisses, it was passionate and every second I felt more and more love for him.    He is every girls perfect, Iast night I was weird about him saying he felt a connection but now I feel it too. I stand up and walk to the kitchen and see what's in his cupboard. Perfect, pankcake mix and waffles. I put them on the bench and grab a pan from the bottom of the cupboard and start cooking them. Not gonna lie, these actually look pretty good which is unusual for me. I get out two plates and sit the food on the table. As I walk over to the fridge to get some water I feel two strong arms wrap around me and I feel safe again. "Good morning beautiful" he says yawning. I turn around and kiss him and once again I feel like I've fallen for him for the twentieth time since I woke up. "I made us breakfast" I say and before I know it he is over at the table stacking his plate with food. This boy is so perfect.

Shawn's perspective
This girl is perfection. The way her eyes squint when she's smiling, her little snorts when she laughs, the way her eyes get wider when she is laughing, her little dimple on her left cheek. I know it's been one day but I want to be with this girl forever, I want to have children with her. I am about to imagine our little children running around our house before I snapped out of my thoughts by y/n. "Shawn, did you hear me?" she says laughing, I'm head over heels for this girl. "What did you say princess?" Did I just call her princess? My heart starts racing because I don't know if she feels the same way. I look over at her praying she is still here and didn't leave. She has the biggest smile on her face and her cheeks are red. "I said what should we do today?" In her soothing voice. "Maybe we could go for a drive in Toronto and spend the day together then when it's dark we can sit in my car and watch the stars?" I say quietly scared she won't want to. It's silent for a few seconds but before I know it, y/n runs and jumps into my arms giving me the warmest and most comforting hug I've ever had. "I would love to, that sounds perfect" she says before connecting our lips and smiling. I think I love this girl. (Fast forward to later that night)
I've never been this happy before. So happy that my mouth is hurting from smiling and laughing all day. Y/n is so perfect and I hope she knows that. There isn't a flaw on her whole body. There it was, the voice that gives me butterflies every time. "I really enjoy spending time with you" her beautiful mesmerising voice whispered into my ear. I could feel her smiling while her face was buried into the crook of my neck. "Me too gorgeous, me too" I say while wrapping my arms around her tighter. I notice y/n smell my hoodie and smile, like in someway i make her feel safe. I've been so happy with y/n I totally forgot that she doesn't live with me and one day she isn't going to be sleeping at mine. Maybe soon she can take me to her place and I can sleep there for a while if I'm not busy. I'm so lucky I met y/n while I was on break otherwise we wouldn't of been able to connect.

Y/n perspective
I've never imagined my Saturday night being this perfect. I'm laying here under the stars, cuddled up with the most beautiful and sweet boy ever. He makes me feel safe and happy again. I feel like as soon as I met him I started healing, like the sadness in me started going away. Earlier he called me princess which shows he feels the same way about me too. I am going to sleep at his for a few more days and then maybe ask him if I can move into his if we are going well. I know it's fast but I think I'm in love. I am about to imagine our future before I hear a phone beep, Shawns phone beep. He looks at his screen and quickly hides it from me like it's something I can't know, what is he hiding from me? What if I'm just another one of his girls. What if he actually is seeing other girls and not just me. I feel my heart beat faster and before I know it I feel a tear run down my cheek. Should I ask him what the text was about?

Shawn's perspective
I hope she didn't just see how I moved my phone so she wouldn't see the text. It's from my manager Andrew saying I have a meeting tomorrow regarding my upcoming tour. I don't think y/n knows that I'm a famous singer and I want to keep it that way as long as I can because most girls hear the word famous and think money, then they use you until they have everything they want. I don't think y/n is that type of person at all but I still want to be safe. I notice y/n sniffle but when I turn my face to look at her, she is asleep. Hopefully she was asleep when I got the text so she definitely didn't see anything at all. I pick up my phone and type a 'okay' with a heart. My tour group and I always send hearts to each other to show that we are thankful each other I guess. I lay down my phone and wrap my arms around her. The girl I'm in love with, who I want to spend the rest of my life with. Andrew sends back a text saying 'see you tomorrow💗' and that's when I feel y/n move. I turn around and see her beautiful face smiling right back at me. "A bit tired were you" I ask her making her laugh, showing her perfect smile again.

Y/n perspective
He's cheating on me. Shawn thought I was asleep but the whole time I was just watching shawn text her on his phone. My heart feels crushed and my eyes sting, I finally opened myself up to someone other than Lily and it was the wrong decision again. They were sending hearts and he said he can't wait to see her tomorrow. I didn't see her name but I know it started with an A. Amelia, Alice, Amy? I don't know yet but I'm going to find out. I knew Shawn was going to be like all the other boys, how they make you feel wanted and special while they're actually messing around with other girls. I can't show him that I know yet, I need to work out who this girl is first. I hug shawn and remember the guitar he has in his car, "Shawn could you sing and play the guitar for me?" I saw trying to give him my best fake smile. "Of course my angel, I might even sing you a song I wrote" he says before kissing me. I just want to hit him, the way he is acting like he's the sweetest most loving boy alive. Such a dickhead. "What if I told you a story, all about someone who loves you. What if I told you he's sorry, he made you wait." His angelic voice echoes through the car. No matter how mad I am at Shawn I have to say, Shawn has an incredible voice. "Your voice is incredible Shawn, you need to share it with the world!" I say excited. Then every thing clicks, he wrote that song for his ex. He is in love with her still and I'm just a girl he's using to try and forget about her. I hate him. I don't even want to be near him anymore so I kiss him so he'll just shut up.

Shawn's perspective
What y/n doesn't know is that I do share it with the world, I have three albums and I tour all the time. "Do you want to head home now my angel?" I ask her, she hesitates for a second before saying yes. It's two in the morning, we have been looking at stars for three hours and I had more fun than I would singing probably. I take y/n back to my condo and we talk about our life goals and other things before watching a movie and then getting in bed. For some reason y/n looks upset, like she wants to change something in her life right now. "Baby are you okay?" I ask her but she just shrugs it off. My mum always told me that when a girl says she fine it usually means she's not okay but she just doesn't want to tell you. "y/n you can tell me if you aren't enjoying yourself here" I tell her trying to break the silence. "Shawn I'm fine, please stop asking him if I'm okay because it's getting annoying" she quickly snaps back this time with sadness and anger in her voice. Did I do something wrong? I try and hug y/n but she pushes me off her and says she isn't in the mood right now. I don't understand, it's like I've hurt her. "Y/n I know you're not okay, please just tell me what's wrong and we can work things out. You sound hurt and sad, have I done something?"