The Unexpected Heartache

chapter seven

y/n and Shawn texting
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Shawn: I miss you, I know I stuffed up. Let me explain pls honey. I can't live without you and I have no feelings for Katy.
                                                      
                                                    Stop texting me ;Y/n

Shawn; no, I'm not going to stop until you let me explain and here me out. I love you and I'm going to fight for you.
              
                         if we are meant to be we will be.  ;Y/n
              Let's do our own thing for a while and focus
       on ourselves. I deserve better than a cheater.

Shawn; You do deserve better and I think that's what hurts me the most. I've always tried to think that I deserve you but I think I've finally realised you deserve the world and I can't give you it. Im sorry I'm such a dickhead. I will never stop loving you y/n.

Remember that day in the kitchen ;Y/n
when I told you what my mum told me
after I broke up with my first ever
boyfriend in 7th grade?

Shawn; Yes, I remember everything you tell
me y/n. Your mum and you were shopping
and you were upset and your mum held
your hand and took you into the Nike shop
then said "Y/n there is always a reason that you meet people. Either you need them to change your life or you're the one who changes there's.

How did you remember everything ;Y/n
       In so much detail? How do you have         
                                      enough time to listen to me?

Shawn; I think no matter how busy you are
if you truly love someone you'll always be able
to make time for them. I hope that answers
your question.

you say all the right things ;Y/n
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(not texting anymore)
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Y/n perspective
I tell myself I need to ignore everything he says and focus on myself for a while but how do I ignore him when everything he says is perfect and makes perfect sense. It's so hard to wonder if everything he's saying is just a way to get me back or if it's really love. I truly believe that if two people are meant to be they don't even need to try, they just need to live everyday normally and love will come to them when they're least expecting it. That's what happened to me at least. I've always been someone who finds it hard to forgive people but i don't even feel mad towards Shawn. Why am I such a different person ever since I met him, it's like he's made me a better person. My mind keeps telling me to text shawn a massive paragraph about how I forgive him and how much he means to me but my heart is reminding me to stop wasting my time and just let life do it's own thing. I put down my phone and look around at the beautiful world we live in and try and get my mind off Shawn but it's impossible. I look at the big tree and think about the day Shawn climbed it to prove he would do anything for me. I look at the streets and think of the night we ran the streets, laughing so hard our face hurt. I think forgetting him is going to be a lot harder than I planned. I don't even know if I'll ever forget him. They always say you never forget your first love, but I don't think this is my first love, I think this is the boy I'll always love.

Shawn's perspective
Why am I so fucking dumb? Why do I always hurt the people I care about most? Why did I ever let myself fall in love with y/n when I can't give her what she deserves? I have all these questions that I'll never get answers to and I think that's what breaks me the most. I've be sitting on my phone scrolling through all the tweets about Y/n and I. I read one that puts me out of my misery just for a second, 'I swear to fucking god if Y/n and Shawn broke up I'm breaking up with life. I've never see Shawn be happier than when he was with y/n.' My fans are the funniest people ever, I adore every single one of them with all my heart. Every time I'm sad they always know how to make me feel better. I put down my phone then pick up my guitar and a pen and paper. I write down my feelings.
'You yeah you
That's just the truth, the truth
And I'd be lying if I said
It'd be a lie to say I'm not stuck on you'
This isn't the first song I've wrote about y/n, I've wrote many songs about her and they're all my favourite songs. It was always so easy to write songs about y/n because it was happy and pure emotions but now with each word that I write, I feel my heart shatter a little more each time because I think of all the memories we have. I post the few lyrics I've written on Instagram stories and then look at all the photos of y/n and I together but before I know it, I fall asleep.
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the next day
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Y/n perspective
I'm sitting in my office at work trying to concentrate and just do things the way I did them before Shawn came along before my boss walks in. I stand up and greet him, "hello Sir, how are you today?" I ask him, trying to sound as positive as possible. "Good Morning y/n, I'm good thankyou but I have some bad news for you" he says sitting down in the office chair on the other side of my desk. I don't think I can take any bad news right now honestly but I have to. "Oh okay" I say sitting down, thinking of all the things it could be. "Y/n, you are such an amazing and strong woman. You are so passionate in everything you do and you always know what's right and wrong but.." he says before looking down, his face showing disappointment. "But we are going to have to let you go, because of Shawn and your breakup the company is receiving death threats and it's bad for our business. We are so sor-" he says before I cut him off. "Are you joking, are you fucking joking?" I say angrily and pick up my stuff and walk out my office, slamming the door to show him my anger. Everyone's head turns to me and I hear the whispers about me as I walk into the elevator. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse I've now lost my god damn job. All Shawn's bought me is bad luck, disappointment and sad thoughts.

Shawn's perspective
I know that y/n doesn't want to see me but I need to see her. I know she works in a tall building a few streets from here so I'm going to see her today. I decide to walk there and surprisingly no one notices me or ask for a photo. I spot the building and stop where I am thinking if it's the right decision. I weigh out the pros and cons and they pros outweigh the cons so I keep walking. I open the glass door and press the elevator button but someone is coming down from upstairs so I decide to take the stairs instead. I feel my heart racing and I'm nervous to see her. I reach the top of the stairs and walk over to the help desk asking where y/n is and if I can see her. "Sorry sir but you just missed her, she was literally just fired because our company was receiving death threats because she broke up with some famous guy named Shawn Mendes?" the older lady says while collecting her printed sheets from the printer. I got y/n fired. I fucking ruined her life first and now I've ruined her job. "Oh okay, thankyou anyways" I say slowly, still trying to wrap my mind around the fact I got y/n fired. I turn around and decide to take the stairs instead of the elevator because of the fact y/n just left in it. I take out my phone and post a photo on Instagram with the caption 'please do not send death threats to y/n or her work. You are meant to support me, not hurt me. Thankyou for the ones who stayed out the drama, I love you."
I know now that we are officially over and I don't think y/n was right when she told me sometimes we fall for the right person at the wrong time because there's no way I can see her forgiving me.

Message from the author
this sucks!! I really needed to update and I promise next chapter will be better. I love yous!