Art and Randomness (book 4)

♡📝 I CONFESSED TO MY CRUSH (not clickbait!)

January 31,2019

Sooooooo
Yeah

I CONFESSED TO MY CURRENT CRUSH

JAMS

YES

I TOLD HIM I LIKE HIM

AND I TOLD HIM PERSONALLY. NOT THROUGH MESSAGE

WOW

so uh... I guess I have to tell what happened

So last week, We had our St. Paul's week, just a free week full of activities in my school. No classes and boring stuff.

So me and jams were exchanging convos in curious cat (it's a website for asking anonymous questions) and yes, i was anonymous and he doesn't know it was me talking to him.

I decided to confess to him suddenly. Idk where I got the reckless confidence but that doesn't matter.

So around the 3rd day of St. Paul's week, I asked him in curious cat: "How do I confess?"

And he just replied: "go to the field"

And I fckin rushed to the field but I couldn't see him so I went home.

The following day (the 4th day), my friends told me they were so disappointed of me because I didn't confess to him when they saw him alone.

AWW DANG I DIDNT SEE HIM. There were two fields in school. The first field was... empty lol. And the second one has rides that are up temporarily for the week.

I was in the first empty field. He was in the field with the rides.
I was disappointed of myself too. Why do I have terrible eyesight.
It was probably like a cliche anime scene where the two characters are looking for their partner but they are facing away from each other and they don't meet and shit.

So yeah... 4th day. I looked for him all over the field again and after going around the whole school twice or thrice My friend and I finally saw him.

My friend pointed him and then I just ran to him and told him..

"Hey, uh... do you know one of the persons who are asking you in cc?"

"I'm one of them"

*insert deep breath*

"I have a crush on you."

AND IT GOT A BIT AWKWARD BUT THANKFULLY MY FRIEND AND HIS FRIEND CAME TI RESCUE.

He told me someone also confessed to him earlier. And that it's ok for me to like him but he has someone else in mind.

I just told him I have accepted the fact that if he likes someone else it's ok. And that for me it's just a happy kind of crush and it ain't that much of a serious feeling.

Blah blah

Later on I messaged him because I was a mess while I was confessing. I told him some things that I wasn't able to say before blah blah blah.

That's all that happened.

It ain't as exciting as you probably expected it to be.

Bonus:
I think I never told you guys about something last year... and if I did, whatever. I'm telling it again

So i watched Aquaman in the cinemas and BOOM! Jams sat in front of my seat.

And my past crushes was there in the cinema too.

I died that day.