Forgive or Forget

Chapter Two

I ended up going home early today because I couldn't take all the stares, people whispering, and people coming up to me to say the same thing over and over again. 'I'm sorry for your lost.' Every single time. The only good part about the day was seeing my best friend again and meeting Hunter. He's a really sweet kid. We talked through most of math and also through history, anatomy, and gym class. By the time I left I already had his number. 

I got home and was welcomed by an empty house. My mom was at work, as usual, and my older brother, Blake, was at college. It was his first year. I remember how excited he was when he was applying to them. He wanted to get out into the 'real world' but the timing couldn't have been worse. I walked up the stairs, thoughts flooding my brain. I managed to make my way to my room and plopped on to the bed. I wanted to just curl up in the covers and hibernate for the rest of my life. When will any of this get better?

I grabbed my phone and texted Crystal to see if I missed anything important, but I doubt I did considering it was the first day of school. I waited for about ten minutes before I got a reply, but instead of it being Crystal it was Hunter. I unlocked my phone and read his message.

"Where'd you go??"        -Hunter

I didn't really feel like replying so I just threw my phone to the opposite side of the bed. I looked up at my ceiling and just layed there, starring. Thoughts filling my head like a balloon. Why is this happening to me? I need to get out of this house. I grabbed my keys and headed out to my car.

After driving for awhile, I found myself driving to the cemetery. I needed to talk to him. I found the area where my dad was. I crept my way to his grave.

"Hi daddy." I said with a sad smile. "I know you don't like seeing me sad, but I just miss you so much." I continued with tears in my eyes.

I couldn't help but break down right there. There were people walking by. They took one look at me and felt the same pain I was feeling. I collected myself as best as I could and continued my one way conversation. "I went to school today. It wasn't that bad except for the fact that everyone keeps coming up to me and say the same old bullshit." I said angry, "But I met someone. His name is Hunter. He's a nice boy daddy. Aha I know I'm still your little girl. I know you'll watch over me." I smiled.

I stayed their talking to him for hours. I realized that it was late when I couldn't see what was in front of me. I told my dad goodbye and that I'll visit him soon. I kissed the top of his grave before heading to my car and returning home. I got to my house quite quickly. I retreated back to my room. I noticed something glowing on my comforter. My phone of course. I grabbed it and saw that I had eight new messages. Most of them were from Hunter and the rest were from Crystal. I opened my and checked what was so important.

"Are you ignoring me?"        -Huner

"You didn't miss much babe. I missed you the rest of the day"         -Crystal

"Stop ignoring me!"        -Hunter

"Please."        -Hunter

"Are you okay?"        -Hunter

"Am I annoying you?"        -Hunter

"I'm just going to go."        -Hunter

"Bye :("        -Hunter

It was already too late to reply. His last message was an hour ago and I honestly don't care. Ever since the accident, I just don't have the will to make an effort to attempt anything anymore. I know it makes me this some sort of bitch, but I just don't want to do anything besides stay at home and do nothing. I just sighed and placed my phone on the charger before getting ready for bed. As I shuffled around to find a comfortable position, I feel into a deep sleep.