The Next Generation Returns (TMI) BOOK 2

Waiting for FOOD, and finding GUILT

Welcome to book 2! *crowed screams*

book 2 is here! I hope I didn't take too long to bring this story back. lol. I hope this first chapter is the right start for you... if not, I know chapter 2 will be... *wink*  hope you enjoy. dont forget to comment and or like. 

Jade POV: No better place than home. No better place then the New York institute, sitting on my four poster bed reading the third harry Potter book for the fifth time. Lydia was in the kitchen getting us some food. I doubt she will eat it though.

I lose track of the book, letting it slide through my fingers, thinking. I tried to distract my thoughts by reading and drawing more. Even training. But sometimes, without warning, they just come.

Going back to the night. The night I killed Sebastian.

I keep wondering what it was that he wanted in the result of me killing him. You would think he would want me to kill my sister. That would break me. And he knows it.

But, no. he wanted me to kill him. He must have placed that anger and self hatred inside me to turn around and bring my blade of fire into his open chest. He even smiled when I did it.

His eyes were sharp. Blank. As though this was just me coming to tell him off, or... or a planned meeting. It was more like that. Something scheduled.

He was just waiting. Waiting for me to take his undead life.

He knew then. He knew that anger, that pain would do all he wanted to build his army. To kill every shadowhunter on that ground and beyond. If it made it that far, it would have. If Jason never stopped it. If he never stopped me, every shadowhunter in this world could have died, coming to life under his rule. In his vision.

I know I should see Jason. Thank him for everything he did for us. Though I haven't seen him at all since he's been here. Not down the halls, or at breakfast, dinner, training room. Nowhere as though he disappeared completely. I mentioned this to Lydia, and she just said that it was weird, since she saw him everyday. it's been a week now.

Maybe he was avoiding me. It would make sense after everything I've done. I can imagine he wouldn't think twice about saying a word to someone who just about destroyed every shadowhunter in the world.

But he is my brother... I had to have a little hope he might forgive. But I can't count on it either.

I guess I'm afraid to run into him. I didn't know what I would say.

Maybe, "Oh, sorry I made it harder for you to help Lydia, and sorry we didn't know about you... that we didn't save you when you were gone for your entire life. And sorry for all those burns on your back. I bet those hurt pretty bad."

No. I couldn't say that. But i'm sure I have to at least try to say something. He's my brother for the angels sake! I have to. And I will....

 Tomorrow.

I get up and grab another sheet of thick drawing paper and my box of extremely expensive pencils.

What am I doing? I keep making stupid excuses... drawing and reading won't take him off my mind. But, thinking of Jason is better than thinking of Sebastian though...

"Jade... get ahold of yourself and just find him."
"Find who?" I look up and just about peed myself at the sound of my sister's voice.

"God... you scared the howlers out of me sis."

"Ha. sorry." she wasn't sincere when she said this.

"Its fine. Ooooh... what did you bring with you."