𝘊𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘏𝘌𝘙𝘌, 𝘔𝘠 𝘓𝘐𝘓' 𝘉𝘜𝘕𝘕𝘠...「𝘑𝘐𝘒𝘖𝘖𝘒/𝘒𝘖𝘖𝘒𝘔𝘐𝘕 𝘍𝘍」

48

Weeks passed.. the pain is slowly fading, but at the same time it was pretty strong. I was alone most of the day, because Jungkook had to be at the company. I was working, but I had everything done quickly. I couldn't do much.. so I was mostly thinking in the bed. Later on I was really scared of the dark and the people.. which made me sadder everyday. Jungkook was only support, since no one else knew about it. But today I thought, that I might do something else then just be sad. I walked through tee apartment and thought of something fun. But everytime I thought of something, there was a thing that didn't let me do it. I sighed, not knowing what else to do. I sat down on the cohch, when suddenly the door opened. Jungkook was home early. He shut the door and I looked at him. ,,Jungkook what's going o-" he didn't let me finish the sentence, because as soon as he took his shoes off, he sat next to me and kissed me. ,,I.. have.. a.. break.. so.. I'm.. spending.. it.. with.. you.." he said in between the kiss. He laye dme on the couch and beginning of "that" started. ,,B-but, Jungkook.. You don't have that much time.. plus it really hurts me." I said and he looked at me. ,,I-I forgot about that.. what about that without the main part?" he said and gave me a cute look. ,,*sigh* okay Jungkook.." I said and he kissed. ,,If it'll hurt.. tell me, okay? Don't be like last time.." he said and I nodded. He continued kissing me. I know he's gentle and that he tries not to hurt me.. but it's just like my body doesn't want it, but my mind does. A few seconds and my spine started hurting. ,,J-Jungkook..." I said and sat down. I grabbed his shirt and tightly held it. I leaned my head on his chest. He held me the whole time. The pain went away after a few minutes.. I all sweaty let go of his shirt and layed on him. ,,Jimin.. the pain isn't getting any better.." he said and I laughed. ,,No.. i-it's better than last week! I promise!"
I said and he lifted my head. ,,Look in my eyes and say it again..." he said and I looked in his eyes. ,,I promise, the pain is better.." I said and he sarcatically laughed. ,,I knew it.. lying again." he said and looked at me. ,,B-but I don't want you to be upset.. because of "th-" he stopped. ,,Jimin, this isn't about "that".. it's about you having pain, that doesn't go away! And it's slowly worse and worse.. Jimin you promised to go to the hospital, when it's not gonna get better!" he shouted. I started crying.. ,,I'm scared Jungkook! I'm scared of the pain that's in my body! I'm scared of what's going on with both my body and life. For fuck's sake, Jungkook.. Kai wants to kill you! I can't let him hurt you! I don't want to lose you, that's why! You go to the hospital to visit me and what? You get ran over, shot, anything! I can't let that happen!" I shouted and cried. He looked at me. He lifted me in a hug. ,,Sh.. I'm sorry, Jimin.. for shouting at you. I didn't mean to.. I just don't want to lose you, too.. But you have to be healthy.. " he said and I cried in his chest. ,,We need to get you to the hospital. Right away.." he said and sat me down. He went to the bedroom and after a while he came back with a bag, packed with my clothes. He helped me out on my coat. In the middle of it, I said: ,,Jungkook.. C-can I go to the different hospital?". ,,Why?" he asked and I looked to the ground. ,,Nothing.." I said and went to the door. ,,Another hospital is in a next town.." he said and I looked at him. ,,Well then nevermind." I said and wiped my tears off. He gave me a kiss in my hair and we went to the hospital. I was standing there, looking like a crybaby. But the nurse was nice. She gave me a room and Jungkook went with me. ,,Jimin, I have to go. The break's slowly over.. I'll come back tomorrow and I'll be here all day.. Okay?" he said and I nodded. He gave me a kiss and said goodbye. I changed, layed on the bed and the nurse turned on all the devices and connected me to them. Unfortunately for me.. I had the same doctor. ,,Good afternoon Mr. Kim. I'll take the pacient now, thank you." he said and the nurse left. As soon as she closed the door, his smiles changed into death stare. ,,You're back? Well.. it seems you didn't tell anyone. You're lucky." he said and looked at the wound. ,,It looks infected and it's swollen." he said and written something in his notebook. ,,The pains worse.." he said when he read what I told to the nurse. He looked at me. ,,It looks like you'll have to stay here for a long time.. Since the wound is infected, the pain is getting worse. Also your friend told the nurse, you had to grab on something, so that you won't faint.. After the pain's fading, there's a high fever and sweat.." he read out what the nurse written. ,,From what it seems just infection, but I'd rather take a blood test.." he said all calm. ,,Okay.." I said and he sat down next to me. I got scared. ,,How much does the pain repeat a day?" he asked and I gulped. ,,W-Well 5-7 times a day.. around that number..." I said and he looked at me. ,,Well then. I'll have to see how the pain is strong.." he said and I nodded. ,,Okay.." I said and he was with me until the pain came again. I grabbed on the sheets and held them tightly, while bending my back and trying to reduce the pain. I held my breath the whole time, because the pain is not as big. It took a few minutes until it stopped. The doctor looked shocked. ,,The pain is really big.." he i d and wrote down everything and checked if Jungkook wasn't lying. ,,Okay.. I'll give some antibiotics through the injection, for now.. the nurse will take your blood. Also tell me what it feels like and if they happen in sleep too.. That's the last thing I need." he said and I claimed my breath down. ,,It's like.. someone is stabbing my whole spine.. it hurts so freaking much.. and they happen at night when I sleep, but very rarely.. They happen mostly when I'm awake.." I said and he nodded and wrote it in a notebook. He then called a nurse, that took my blood. They made them right at the hospital.. and as he said it was an infection. They gave me stronger antibiotics.. the pain was still strong, especially when the nurses cleaned my wound. But it was actually getting better.. I felt asleep right after everything for this day was done.

When I woke up, Jungkook was sitting beside me. He was smiling when he saw I was awake. ,,Hey Jimishi~" he said and I smiled. I was a little dazzy, but that was okay, as long as I saw his face. ,,Hey Jungkook!" I sat and sat down. He leaned in for a hug and kiss. ,,How are you? Is your pain better?" he asked and I nodded. ,,It's actually a lot better!" I said and smiled. ,,I can see that, you're not as white." he said and layed in a bed with me. ,,What are we gonna do today, Jimin?" he asked and I laughed. ,,Sleeep." I said and rubbed my eyes. ,,You slept ten hours!" he said and laughed. ,,But I'm still sleepy." I said and leaned my hand on his shoulder. Suddenly the pain starte again. I grabbed on the sheet and held it as always. But this pain was really just two minutes short, instead of normal seven.. ,,Jimin, you're actually getting better.." said Jungkook and I looked at him. ,,Yeah, but it still pretty hurts.." I said and claimed down. ,,You're strong, Jimin.." said Jungkook and gave me a kiss. ,,..just.. get better as soon as possible. You can do it!" he said and I laughed. ,,Yeah, I'm strong, because I have you.. you're the reason I fight for my life.. because I want to be with you." I said and he cuddled with me. ,,Aw, Jimin.. you're so cute!" he said and I hugged him. I leaned my head on his chest and rested, while he played with my hair. ,,Jimin." he said and gave me a kiss in ym hair. ,,Yes, Jungkook?" I asked him. ,,When you get out of here, I have a surprise for you.." he said and I smiled. ,,Well, now I nee to get better even quicker." I said and we gave each other a quick kiss. ,,I love you, Jimin.." he said and I smiled. ,,I love you too, Jungkook." I said and cuddled with him, while resting on his chest. I was happy for quite a time again. I wasn't even scared fo people and what'll happen anymore since I was in Jungkook's arms again. He is such a nice and helpful person.. that's why I love him.. I don't care if he's just a person I met a few months ago.. I just love him with my whole heart.. and I'd *laughs* take a bullet for him.. I  love him that much.