𝘊𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘏𝘌𝘙𝘌, 𝘔𝘠 𝘓𝘐𝘓' 𝘉𝘜𝘕𝘕𝘠...「𝘑𝘐𝘒𝘖𝘖𝘒/𝘒𝘖𝘖𝘒𝘔𝘐𝘕 𝘍𝘍」

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When I woke up my head and whole body hurt. What would you expect, they said I fell hard on the ground. After some time, I started to think straight and first thing that came to my mind was Jungkook. Rules or not, I got out of bed and ran room by room to find Jungkook. I finally found him in the highest floor of the hospital. He was asleep.. I locked us in the room, sitting down next to Jungkook's bed, crying. ,,Why do people I love get hurt..." I said and cried. When I looked at Jungkook on the bed, I cried harder and harder. I closed my eyes and cried, head on my knees, while the doctors started banging on the door. ,,Why are you crying, Jiminshi~~?" suddenly said voice and I felt hand on my hair. ,,J-Jungkook?" I said and looked up. He smiled at me. ,,Who else would it be, dummy?" he asked and I jumped in his arms, hugging him tightly. ,,Kook, I'm so sorry, I hate myself.. I don't want you to be hurt... It's all my fault... I'm sorry.." I cried in his chest. He sighed and then hugged me tightly. ,,J-Jimin, what are you saying? It's not your fault!" he said and I heard him sob. He lifted my head and looked in my eyes. ,,You didn't cause any of this. You didn't shoot me... You didn't do anything, okay?" he said and I gave him a kiss. ,,But.. I can't see you hurt anymore.." I said and sat down on the floor. ,,J-Jimin.." said Jungkook and gasped, because of pain. ,,I love you, Kook.. Don't forget that.." I said and stood up walking to the door. ,,Jimin, don't go, please!! Please, I beg you!" he shouted at me, crying. ,,I'm so sorry, Kook.. I can't let anyone hurt you again..." I said leaned my head on the door and then opened them. ,,Jimin!" shouted Jungkook for the last time and then the doctors separated us. They took me back in my room and locked me in there, so that I won't run away. They kept me there for 3 whole days and then let me go. They gave me medication and I left, not even saying goodbye to Jungkook. For the next week or so, I was isolated from everyone. I didn't go out or eat, I didn't even talk to anyone, not even through phone. A few people tried to visit me, but I didn't open the door or respond. All I did was cry and cry, thinking about Jungkook. But then one day, I heard keys. When the door knob clicked and the door opened, I felt good when I saw face of my one and only Jungkook. At first I ran to him, but I stopped. He looked at me with smile, but when I stopped his smild turned to confused look. ,,What's wrong, my love? Aren't you happy I'm here?" he said and walked towards me. I stopped him a few steps in front of me. ,,Jimin?" he said and I looked at him with watered eyes. ,,I told you, I can't let anyone hurt you. Please, don't make this hard for both of us, please..." I said and started crying again. ,,Jimin, please... You're my only happiness.. Please.. Don't let me leave you..." he said and it hurt me, seeing him said. His eyes got watery.. I couldn't bare the sight of him being all broken. ,,Jungkook.. I love you so much.. I would die for you.. Nothing matters to me more than your life.." I said and turned around. His hand appeared on my shoulder. ,,That's why I have to let you go, bunny.. That's why I can't let anything else between us to happen." I said and he layed his head on my shoulder, kissing my neck trying to convince me. ,,You should go, Jungkook." I said and shake him off me. Then silence appeared in the room, until Jungkook's sobs made me turn around. ,,I-Is this what you really want?" he said and I looked down. ,,Jungkook.. You know that I don't want to let go of you... But if it means to keep you safe, I'll gladly take the risk of not seeing you ever again... Then seeing you dead." I said and he looked down, breaking in tears. He through the keys on the couch and ran out of the apartment, shutting the door behind him. I fell on my knees, once the silence appeared again, after he left. I cried hard, throwing vases and breaking everything. But then the ring on my hand slipped and flew behind one of the dressers. I sat on the couch looking st the dressers and calming myself a bit. After I claimed down, I moved the dresser and found my ring along with a diary. I looked at it all confused. I put my ring on the on and sat down on the couch, putting the diary on the table. It was Jungkook's diary and everything was there... planning how he'll propose, drawing of me and him, photos of us.. His poems to me, I never heard from him. There was even a wedding plan.. I couldn't bare it anymore and I changed my mind. I ran out of the apartment, putting my coat on in a rush and ran out of the building, trying to find Jungkook...