Tell me when you're ready » Chae Hyungwon

4.

Song of the Chapter:
If I could fly - One Direction

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As soon as I'm done with my work I rush to my apartment, Minho has a night shift today so I will be alone.

Did Hyungwon knew that before he told me he's pick me up?

To be honest, I don't want to be in my past life again but at the same time I miss Hyungwon so much.

He makes my life complete, I'm sure we are destined to be together even tho the universe drifts us apart.

He makes me happy, he is the key to my heart.

But it's a bad idea, to be with hi in his mansion again.

I'm 25 now, I want a life for myself..

I sit on the couch in silence.

Nothing makes a sound, the only thing I hear is the nervousness in my breath.

Then a knock on the door fills the silence.

Followed by a couple more knocks.

"Who's there?" I ask hoping it's the delivery man but knowing it would be that one person I missed so much.

"Faith.." His voice sounds so broken.

The step I'm about to make will ruin my whole life again.

Or it will not..

I know that my life is ruined without Hyungwon in it.

So maybe I'm gonna heal my life again.

But am I gonna do it?

"Faith please?" His voice asks quietly on the other side of the door.

I bite my lip in hesitation.

Then I grab the door handle and push it down seeing Hyungwon there.

His eyes are looking straight in to mine, they look tired, like they haven't rest for days.

His hair is messy, his suit is crumbled, and his expression is empty.

Even tho I see a light in his eyes, a twinkling.

He offers me his hand and I just smile taking it.

I lock the apartment behind me and take my suitcases as we walk off.

On our way to get messed up again.

I know it will not go as I imagine it to be, as my dreams tell me, but I know that if I wouldn't take this chance I wouldn't be able to life any longer.

He makes me want to life.

Even tho we both have death souls he makes me feel alive.

We take place in his car, it surprises me that Shownu and Wonho aren't here, he came all by himself.

As we drive off his hand finds it's way to my thigh.

I look up to him looking at his face that is focussed on the road.

"Missed the sight?" He asks and his head turns to my for a split second before looking at the road again.

I let out a small laugh.
"Actually, I did." I tell him and he just keeps a blank expression.

"Oh come on, smile a bit?" I say and he looks at me again smiling really fake.

"Happy now?" He asks and looks at the road again.

"Yeah, that will do" I laugh.

"So how have you been?" He asks me and I just look down smiling, his voice makes me so happy.

"What?" He asks showing a bit of a smile.

"Nothing, I'm just happy" I say.

"Why?" He asks now laughing a bit.

"Because, you.." I say and he now smiles fully.

That was my whole goal, as long as I can see that everyday I'm all happy with the decision I made tonight.

"I missed you" He says quietly.

Probably so I wouldn't hear it, so I just pretend I didn't hear and just keep on laughing.

After a long conversation about our life we arrive at the mansion.

I step out of the car and all the memories come back.

"Welcome back" Hyungwon says and we get inside the mansion.

There everyone stands.

Shownu, Wonho, Minhyuk, Kihyun, Jooheon and Chankyun

"Nice to see you again guys" I say and immediately hug everyone.

Beginning with Kihyun and ending with Shownu.

"I missed you Faith" Changkyun says.

I smile and tear up a bit.

"Let's go to your room, shall we?" Hyungwon asks.

I nod and follow him to my room.

It makes me kind of sad that he said 'your room', I wish he would've take me to his room and said 'our room' but it's fine, I will work on that.

He opens the door and we get in.

There Hyunsoo and Soojin are playing with some toys.

"Oh my god" I say and look at Hyungwon.

He just looks at me and smiles.

"They will be coming over every weekend on my costs, I think I'm ready" He says and I just smile walking up to Soojin to hug her tight.

"Little princess, Mommy missed you so much" I cry out and she just smiles nervously.

"We will now do everything it takes to make you happy, I'm sure about that" I say and take a look at Hyungwon.

"Don't worry" I say and hug her once again.

After a while again Soojin and Hyunsoo leave the mansion.

"When will they come again?" I ask Hyungwon.

"Not this weekend, Hyunsoo still had a job in France, but she is going to stop with that as soon as she found a job in Korea again" Hyungwon says formally.

"I'm happy you did this, even tho it wasn't for you, you made me really happy" I tell him and he comes closer to me.

"Well I think I'm ready to grow up, to be adult" Hyungwon says cupping my cheeks.

"You're gonna kiss me now?" I ask smirking, teasing him.

"No, I think not" He smiles.

"Wait.. you aren't doing this for your pleasures are you? Because I'm not just toy" I say and he shakes his head.

"I know it will take a lot to make me a softie, to tame the lion in me, but I hope we will make it through this time." Hyungwon says.

My hand goes to his hair and slides through it.

"I will do everything I can to make you the boy you are right now, at this moment, because I know that tomorrow the lion will be there again, but we can work it out, we will survive this together." I tell him and he smiles grabbing my wrist.

He takes my hand out of his hair and takes my other wrist pulling my closer to his body.

Then his soft lips finally touch mine, it's a soft, sweet kiss.

His hands loose grip of my wrists and make their way to my face.

My hands are going to his chest.

This moment will be ruined any time soon but right now I'm enjoying every single second.

This Hyungwon is the Hyungwon I love so much.

But that Hyungwon will be hard to keep.

he is still a mafia boss.