Tell me when you're ready » Chae Hyungwon

17.

Song of chapter:
You - Keaton Henson

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"Hyungwon we can fix this, no one has to die okay?" I try to calm him as he collects guns and bullets.

"This can't be fixed Faith, I won't let them hurt you, just stay inside, I.. I need you to do that" Hyungwon tells me and stands closer to me wiping a tear of my face with just his thumb.

"Please don't make stupid decisions" I say and manage to smile.

"I won't princess" he winks and backs off.

"Hyungwon.." I say before he can leave, he turns around and puts his hands in his pockets when he watches me.

"I love you" I tell him and he smiles before leaving the office.

Please don't let anything bad happen.

I rush to the window and hide enough behind the curtains so no one can see me but I can see them.

I see a big door opening and Hyungwon walks out emotionless.

I see them talking for a while, Hyungwon is still alone but I know many of his people are hidden everywhere to come up at any moment.

- Hyungwon -

"Well well well" I say not scared.

Even though I am scared, I'm terrified.

That they will hurt me, or Faith.

"Would you two like some coffee?" I ask my parents and they both laugh at me.

"Look we don't have to do this okay? I will stop with my job if you guys want that but nothing will stop my feelings for Faith" I tell them and they stay quiet.

"If you don't answer we can't get any further with this conversation" I say annoyed.

"I want answers!" I say in quite a mad tone now.

"Hyungwon.. why would you give up what you have just for one girl, one single person, you will give up everything you have for her?" My mom asks.

I laugh and roll my eyes.

"You will live a miserable life in a stupid little house with 12 cats, you will have just enough money to pay the rent and the groceries, is that what you want?" My father asks me and I just simply nod.

"it will always be better than growing older in this fucking mansion" I say and close my eyes to breathe for a second.

"Come on sweetheart, you have everything.. why aren't you happy with what you have and what we gave to you?" My mother asks and I laugh my sadness away.

"Happy? I have everything? Mom this house is my biggest nightmare!" I try to calm down for a second but a tear rolls down my face as I think of that one moment that changed this mansion forever.

"Son..."

"I am not your son.. I am nobody's son! Stay away from me and never come back, I'll leave this place tonight, no worries, I'll give you two 75% of my money, is that how I can end all of this bullshit? Is that the way you two will leave me alone? I fucking hate you" I say and was inside feeling my tears running over my face.

I try to catch my breath as the whole situation of 9 years ago goes through my mind.

The whole reason I still can't trust Faith fully, the whole reason why I am so scared of commitment, the reason this mansion is the most saddest place to be.

"Hyungwon"

I can hear the voice going through my memory, her voice.

"Are you sure?"

I can feel the touch on my body, her touch.

"We will stay together forever"

The way she always made me smile.

"We can get through this"

I miss her..

I let myself fall onto the floor in the huge hallways of my broken mansion.

I am too weak, I have become too weak.

"Where are you?!" I scream out as I hide my face into my hands embarrassed of the weak person that I have become.

"Hyungwon?" I hear and look up to lock eye contact with Faith.

I smile half and she immediately walks up to me.

"What is going on?" She asks as she holds my hand tight, I look down at the floor.

Should I tell her?

Should I tell her about my past, about 9 years ago.

The reason I have become who I am.

The story behind my cold personality.

And why it is impossible to stop this personality.

The reason me and my parents have difficulties.

The reason I don't share my bedroom.

The reason why I am so afraid.

So afraid of losing Faith too.

So afraid that one day she'll be gone too.

no...

I won't tell her.

not yet.

I bite my bottom lip and wipe the tears away.

With a cold expression I look up to Faith who seems to be surprised, that my mood has changed so fast.

"We have to leave this mansion tonight, grab your stuff and be ready tonight, Shownu and Wonho will take care of a place to stay" I tell her and get my hand out of hers leaving her all alone in the hallways.

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Guess who is busy with school again?

It me!

Lmao I keep saying I will write more but I just can not promise cuz Yeah...

Anyways! I am a dissapointment and I made a tiktok so go follow me on there! @boozzbe 

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